began
to
massage
it
with
one
hand.
I
licked
my
lips
again,
salivating
at
just
the
idea
of
having
it
in
my
mouth.
I
wasn’t
promiscuous,
but
I
wanted
this
man.
I
wanted
to
feel
his
smooth
shaft
against
my
lips
as
I
took
him
into
my
mouth.
I
needed
to
have
him.
I
wanted
him
inside
of
me.
His
head
leaned
close
to
my
ear.
He
kissed
it
before
speaking.
“I’m
so
in
love
with
you.”
Then
I
just
froze.
I
was
kneeled
in
front
of
him,
with
my
hand
down
his
pants
and
all
I
could
think
about
was
him
being
married
to
my
sister.
They’d
said
vows.
He
was
in
love
with
her.
This
whole
day
was
about
them
working
things
out.
What
kind
of
person
was
I?
I
stood
up
and
grabbed
my
clothes,
covering
myself
with
them,
the
best
I
could.
“Oh
God!
I
can’t
do
this.”
“Babe,
wait!
Where
are
you
going?”
“Stosh,
I’m
so
sorry.
I
never
meant
for
it
to
go
this
far.
I
swear.”
He
tried
to
grab
my
arm,
as
I
began
putting
on
my
clothes.
I
was
already
crying,
desperately
trying
to
figure
out
how
I
was
going
to
explain
myself
to
Ivy.
I
was
supposed
to
be
keeping
everything
in
order
while
she
was
gone,
not
seducing
my
way
into
her
husband’s
heart,
making
him
think
I
was
her.
I
hated
myself.
“Can
you
just
hold
on
a
minute.
We’re
on
a
boat.”
“You
need
to
take
me
back
to
shore,
Stosh.
Trust
me,
this
was
a
huge
mistake.”
When
I
had
my
shorts
up
and
my
bra
hooked,
he
spun
me
around
and
held
my
arms
with
both
hands.
“Is
this
because
I
said
I
loved
you?”
I
shook
my
head,
but
continued
to
cry.
“You’re
never
going
to
forgive
me
for
this.
I’m
so
sorry.
I’m
an
awful
person.”
I
pulled
out
of
his
hold
and
started
to
go
down
toward
the
galley.
I
just
wanted
to
lock
myself
in
the
bathroom
until
we
were
back.
“Willow,
wait!”
I
froze,
halfway
inside
and
yet
still
topside.
I
said
nothing,
thinking
I
just
imagined
it.
I
could
feel
him
standing
right
behind
me.
“Please
don’t
walk
away
from
me.”
He
sounded
like
he
was
about
to
bawl.
I
turned
slowly,
looking
him
right
in
the
eyes.
He
was
breathing
heavy
and
his
eyes
were
intensely
staring
right
at
me.
“I
meant
everything
I
said.”
“I
don’t
understand.”
I
took
one
step
back.
He
took
one
step
forward.
“You
think
I
can’t
tell
the
difference
between
you
and
Ivy?
I’ve
been
in
love
with
you
since
the
first
day
I
saw
you.
The
two
of
you
may
be
identical,
but
there’s
nothing
about
you
that’s
the
same
to
me.”
I
just
kept
looking
at
him.
I
felt
like
I
was
in
the
Twilight
Zone.
“How
long
have
you
known?”