Free Wolves' Bite [PUP Squad Alpha 6] (Siren Publishing Ménage Everlasting) by Abby Blake Page B

Especially if it’s going to take you away from us. Why would you want to return to your old life? Why do you feel the need to play it safe ?”
    “I suppose it’s because I always had to. Skye was really young when our parents died. For the first few years I had the child welfare authorities breathing down my neck. I had to make sensible decisions to prove I was capable of taking care of my little sister.” She gave them both a watery smile, memories of that difficult time obviously filling her brain. “I suppose after that it just became a habit.”
    “Skye is safe and happy now, most of that thanks to you. Maybe it’s time to make decisions based on what you want,” Adam said.
    Thomas really wanted her to want to be with them, but a part of him also realized they weren’t exactly the best candidates a woman could want for mates. Hell, he wouldn’t be happy settling into a nine-to-five world. Was it really fair to ask her to join the life he and Adam lived? Even if they both retired from PUP Squad Alpha, they’d be itching for action, getting involved, perhaps even looking for trouble. It was who they both were, and even if they managed to wind back their natural instincts and take on a nine-to-five life, they wouldn’t truly be happy.
    Maybe Jennifer’s instincts on this one were far more accurate than he’d realized.
     
    * * * *
     
    Jennifer really wanted to throw caution to the wind and follow her heart, but the anxiety that thought evoked was nearly enough to choke her. She wanted these men. She longed for them. Had dreamed of them, and waited for them to walk through her door. Yet now she couldn’t force herself to accept what she truly wanted because it meant a leap of faith she wasn’t capable of taking.
    “Maybe,” Thomas said as he reached over and lifted her hand into his own, “we don’t need to be making any big decisions just now. Maybe we should simply make the most of the time we have here and now and let the future take care of itself.”
    She glanced at Adam’s sad smile before nodding slowly. “I think that might be a good idea. With everything going on it’s probably best not to make any big decisions.”
    Both men looked disappointed, but nodded their agreement.
    “Okay,” Thomas said as he went to roll off the bed. “I’ll just go and…”
    His words trailed off and it seemed obvious that he was looking for an excuse to leave the room. It wasn’t until Jennifer’s gaze dropped lower that she realized the likely reason why.
    “Please stay,” she said quietly, making one of those decisions she’d just decided it was sensible not to make. Thomas hesitated but then slowly got back onto the bed and rolled onto his side so that he was facing her. “What I said in the dreams—about loving you both—that was true. I feel a connection, a physical and emotional compulsion for you both.” She grimaced as she tried to find the words to explain how her heart knew what her head couldn’t yet process. “I just…I want…” She closed her eyes and tried to hold back the tears that threatened to fall.
    “Shhh, beautiful, it’s all going to work out,” Adam said as he leaned over and pressed a soft kiss to her lips. “We’ll find something that works for all of us.” She nodded, turning her face into Adam’s warm palm as the tears overflowed.
    “Oh, god,” she said as she tried to sit up and move away. Could she be any more pathetic? She’d spent a lifetime relying on herself, being the responsible one, making calm, rational decisions, but here she was, somehow rejecting the two men she loved, but still wanting them, still needing them. “I’m sorry.”
    “Don’t be, babe. We love you. Even if you decide to go home and live there the rest of your life, that isn’t going to change. We want you to stay, but we love you enough to let you go.”
    Jennifer felt like her chest was caving in, the pain almost physical. How could she want and love these men so much but