handed him over. âThank you, Brantley.â
âNow, my dear,â Lawrence said, âletâs see to your stomach.â
We ate in the large formal dining room, the four of us seated around a table that could easily seatsixteen. I was gently placed in the chair at the foot of the table, or the bottom of the table, as my grandfather referred to as the ladyâs place, by a footman Brantley called Jasper.
John sat in the middle of the table, between his uncle and me. Thomas and Amelia sat on the other side opposite John. It was in that moment that I got my first really good look at Thomas. He was surrounded by candlelight.
I think I probably gasped out loud. Oh, goodness, I tried not to stare, but it was very difficult not to. Thomas was the most beautiful man I had ever seen in my life. He was rather slight of build, fairâunlike his Spanish mother or his brotherâand his features were so perfectly formed, going together so flawlessly, that surely Michelangelo would have been mad to sculpt him. While his older brother, John, looked dark, dangerous, hard, and meaner than a mad hound, Thomas looked like an angel. He had thick waving blond hair and summer-blue eyes, nearly the same shade as mine.
He was simply beautiful, no other way to say it. Finally I saw something that saved him, barely. He had a very stubborn chin, but even that chin of his, tilted at just the right angle, made one want to run oneâs fingers over his face and just stare at him. It was disconcerting. I happened to look over at John to see that heâd raised an eyebrow at me.
âSorry,â I said. âI canât help it.â
âMost ladies canât,â John said. âTry to contain yourself.â
âI will try.â
Brantley returned then to direct the serving of the dinner. It was a very formal ritual, one obviouslyperformed many times, much more formal than the one Grandfather and I had always observed. Miss Crislock would doubtless be pleased at this ruthless ceremony. She was the one who kept Grandfather and me to a reasonable dining schedule. She had always insisted that we dress for dinner, something Grandfather and I grumbled about, but did because it was important to her.
I watched the two footmen, Jasper and Timothy, move silently about the table, making no unnecessary noise at all. They were also so well trained that they easily pretended they werenât listening when the earl spoke easily of the weather, the state of the grass in the east lawn, or even when he slipped into a more controversial areaâthe damned Whigs, a never-ending misery to be endured, since they couldnât be lined up and summarily shot.
It wasnât until Brantley nodded the footmen to the far side of the dining room and stood himself against the closed door, that Lawrence turned to John, who had just raised a fork with turkey and chestnut pastry on it, and said, âI had thought you planned to remain at Devbridge. Is there some chance that you will not remain here and begin to learn our estate management?â
John frowned at his turkey and pasty, ate it, saying nothing until heâd swallowed. He leaned back in his chair, crossed his arms over his chest, and said very deliberately, âYou have just married a young lady, Uncle, a very young lady. She appears immensely healthy. It seems obvious that there will be an heir in the not-too-distant future. I can now see no reason for me to learn how to manage the estates. You will raise your future son just as an heir should be raised.The lad will doubtless know all the estate management he needs to know by the time he is twelve. There will be no need for me to hang about, cluttering up the dining table.â
Lawrence raised his wineglass to me and silently shook his head. He said to John, his voice as cold as a late winter wind howling over the Yorkshire moors, âI have said this before, and I will say it again. You, John, are my heir. You