his boozy breath in her face, and then a warm, wet stickiness all over her pajama bottoms. Dr. Self went on to direct poor Karen to the traumatic realization that what happened wasnât an isolated incident, because sexual abuse, with rare exception, is repeated, and her mother must have been aware, based on the condition of little Karenâs pajamas and the bedcovers, meaning her mother turned a blind eye to what her husband was doing to their younger daughter.
âI remember my father bringing me hot chocolate in bed once and I spilled it,â Karen finally said. âI remember the warm stickiness on my pajama bottoms. Maybe thatâs what Iâm remembering and notâ¦â
âBecause it was safe to think it was hot chocolate. And then what followed?â No answer. âIf you spilled it? Whose fault was it?â
âI spilled it. It was my fault,â Karen says, tearfully.
âPerhaps why youâve abused alcohol and drugs ever since? Because you feel what happened is your fault?â
âNot ever since. I didnât start drinking or smoking pot until I was fourteen. Oh, I donât know! I donât want to go into another trance, Dr. Self! I canât bear the memories! Or if it wasnât real, now I think it is!â
âItâs just as Pitres wrote in his Leçons cliniques sur lâhystérie et lâhypnotisme in 1891,â Dr. Self said as the woods and lawn beautifully materialized in the dawnâa view that soon would be hers. She explained delirium and hysteria, and intermittently looked up at the crystal light fixture over Karenâs bed.
âI canât stay in this room!â Karen cried. âWonât you please trade rooms with me?â she begged.
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Lucious Meddick snaps a rubber band on his right wrist as he parks his shiny black hearse in the alley behind Dr. Scarpettaâs house.
Intended for horses, not huge vehicles, what kind of nonsense is this? His heart is still pounding. Heâs a nervous wreck. Damn lucky he didnât scrape against trees or the high brick wall that separates the alley and old houses along it from a public garden. What kind of ordeal is this to put him through, and already his brand-new hearse is feeling out of alignment, was pulling to one side as it bumped over pavers, kicking up dust and dead leaves. He climbs out, leaving the engine rumbling, noticing some old lady staring out her upstairs window at him. Lucious smiles at her, canât help but think it wonât be long before the old bag needs his services.
He presses the intercom button on a formidable iron gate and announces, âMeddicksâ.â
After a long pause, which requires him to make the announcement again, a womanâs strong voice sounds through the speaker: âWho is this?â
âMeddicksâ Funeral Home. I have a deliveryâ¦.â
âYou brought a delivery here ?â
âYes, maâam.â
âStay inside your vehicle. Iâll be right there.â
The southern charm of General Patton, Lucious thinks, somewhat humiliated and irked as he climbs back into his hearse. He rolls up his window and thinks of the stories heâs heard. At one time Dr. Scarpetta was as famous as Quincy, but something happened when she was the chief medical examinerâ¦. He canât remember where. She got fired or couldnât take the pressure. A breakdown. A scandal. Maybe more than one of each. Then that highly publicized case in Florida a couple years back, some naked lady strung up from a rafter, tortured and tormented until she couldnât take it anymore and hung herself with her own rope.
A patient of that TV talk-show shrink. He tries to remember. Maybe it was more than one person tortured and killed. Heâs quite sure Dr. Scarpetta testified and was key in convincing the jury to find Dr. Self guilty of something. And in a number of articles heâs read since, she has referred
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