And we all have to pay Anneâs and the driverâs salaries. And Ada says they take that in a monthly sum, instead of per date.
That still seems kind of unfair to me, but Ada says they only charge you if youâre working. If you didnât take any dates the month before, you donât have to pay in. So at least Iâm not going to wind up owing money now that Iâve decided to back off.
Still, it sucks that Iâll never get to see any real money from this, even though I did the work. Now I just have this stupid phone.
Oh, that reminds me. I was going to turn in my phone when we went today, since Iâm not going to work for them anymore, but I was so shocked by the envelope that I forgot all about it. So now Iâve got this phone. Do I go back tomorrow and deliver it then? I really donât want to go back. Is it wrong to keep it? I mean, I did pay for it.
I guess Iâll just hang on to it for now.
Tues, Dec 9
Things are getting back to normal. That is to say, boring, but thatâs okay. Iâm trying really hard to catch up as much as possible in all my classes, and thatâs draining all my energy for the moment. Iâve pretty much stopped all my activities for now, because I just canât with all the schoolwork. I expected Mom to give me a huge hassle about that, but she seemed to agree. School comes first, she said.
Iâve even quit swimming, which sucks, because I really do love that. But there isnât any point in showing up when I canât swim competitively right now. My headâs just not in it. But I donât know, maybe I should start hanging out at the local YMCA or something, just to get in the water from time to time. Could be fun.
There is one other thing that is bothering me a bit. More than it should, maybe. Itâs this damn phone. I still have it, and I feel it weighing on me. The phone doesnât know that Iâve quit, and neither does Miss Irma. And neither does Anne, I guess. Which means my name is still in the appointment book, and I could get a call for a new date at any moment. Ada says all I have to do is say no. Itâs no big deal. People say no all the time, for all kinds of reasonsâtheyâre busy, or on their period, or have a cold or whatever.
And anyway, the phone hasnât rung. I havenât gotten apeep out of it since my date. I wonder if that means the guy complained about me, so now Miss Irma doesnât even want me anymore.
I have no idea why that should bother me, of all things. I should be thrilled, if thatâs the case. But I guess even whores have pride.
I wish it didnât weigh on me, though. That one of these days the phone is going to buzz and itâs going to be a text from Miss Irma setting me up on a date and itâs going to make the whole rotten experience come flooding back. I kind of just want to pitch the phone into the ocean and never think about it again, but I have a feeling Irma wouldnât be too pleased about that. And I donât think I want to make an enemy of her.
Thurs, Dec 11
I got a text todayâon the pink phone. But it wasnât Irma texting, and it wasnât Anne.
It was Ada.
That made the whole thing very different from what I was expecting. What I was worrying about. All it said was, I need a favor. Call me.
I called her right back, of course.
âI need your help,â Ada said as soon as she picked up the phone. She sounded anxious.
âWhat is it?â I said. âWhatâs the matter?â
Ada took a deep breath. âI know youâre out of the business,â she began, âand I really didnât want to have to do this. . . . Believe me, Iâm the last person who wants to drag you back in. But Iâm in a jam.â
âIâll do it,â I blurted out.
âWhat?â said Ada. âBut I havenât even told you what it is yet.â
âI know,â I told her. âBut if