Free Fallen Down Under (Down Under #2) by S.M Phillips Page B

it's far too quiet, something that I used to thrive on after a busy day and dare I say it, now it all feels fucking pointless. I have all this space with nothing but me to fill it. Space also used to me my thing but now my heads getting more and more fucked up there more time I spend here alone. I need to find a way to get Jess to come back to where she belongs. With me. I don't like knowing that she is more comfortable with Liss than she is here with me.
    Fuck my life and what it's become.
     
    Setting my Cadillac into park, I look out at Mal's new house. He sure seems happy here and that in itself makes me happy. It's all I've ever wanted to try and repay him in someday for everything that they have done for me and Liss over the years. They have both been there for us, no matter what and to see them happy gives me a sense of pride that maybe, just maybe, I have done something worthwhile in this life.
    Tonight, I really need to talk to Jess. I need to know what is happening with us and if she feels like it’s worth giving it another shot. I know that I have fucked up so far, but the Stella issue was purely bad timing of a fucked up situation and I’ve explained that to Jess.

Jess
     
    "Oh what do you know? My so called daughter finally answers her goddamn phone to mummy dearest." My mother’s voice echoes down the line and I can tell she is drunk from the slurring of her words.
    "Hi mum. What's up?" I say sharply. I can't help the snap in my tone even though I try my best to hide my irritation. Holding my finger up, I signal to Melissa that I'll only be a minute.
    "I don't see you anymore Jessica. Why don't you bother to call me? You’re supposed to be my daughter or are am I not good enough for your fancy life anymore?" Oh god. Here we go. As soon as alcohol touches her lips the world and everyone is suddenly against her.
    "You know why I don't call you anymore mum. You made it pretty clear last time we spoke that you wanted nothing to do with me. I believe your exact words were that you wished me dead." At my words, Melissa's head whips around to face me, causing her unruly curls to bounce a few times. I just shrug at her to try and remove the outrageous look she has on her face.
    "What is it with you? Every fucking thing always has to be about you don't it? You’re just like your father you know? Only out for yourself in this world and you don't care who you hurt in the process."
    "Well it's been lovely taking to you mum as always. I've got to go." I desperately want to get her off this phone. Normally I'd be okay to deal with it, but I know that Melissa is stood before me all I want to do is cry. My hands begin to shake as I press the end call button on my phone and I bite my bottom lip to prevent the tears that threaten to fall. After everything, she still has ten audacity to blame me because dad walked out on us. I understand that she's still hurting, I completely get it but jeez, she's never tried to let go. Instead hate and anger have been bubbling away inside her ever since and all she can do is spit her poison. Not to mention that my mother can hold a grudge for a bloody long time. I wouldn't mind but I haven't spoken to her for months, so why is she suddenly calling now after all this time?
    "What the fuck was that about? Was that your mum?" Melissa is on me in an instant, her hand rubbing frantically on my shoulder in circular motions trying to calm the shaking that is taking over my entire body.
    "It's nothing new. I'm used to it honestly. I guess it's just the shock of her calling after so long."
    "Still that's not right Jess. No mother should ever speak to their child like that. Ever." No they shouldn't. I know that but it's something that I have had to get used to over the years. "Honestly, I'd rather just forget about it. Now." I say straightening in my top and painting on my big girl face. "Are we ready to go?"
    "You bet'cha."
     
    I'm still livid at my mum’s out of the blue outburst when we pull up