Free The Cool School by Glenn O'Brien Page B

I mind? I thought they were joking at first, but they were serious, so I told them no, I wouldn’t mind, that I’d be flattered. But I couldn’t understand what a fan club would entail.
    We had just started at the Paramount. I think we played for thirteen weeks, and it was jam-packed. I was living at a hotel on Forty-seventh and Broadway, and these girls kept coming around so I’d take them out. We’d go to the drugstore. I’d buy them sandwiches, and they took pictures of me. They were fairly nice looking, and they must have been from the Bronx because they all had that accent. Finally they told me that they really cared for me, that they had a crush on me, and they would like to, you know—they’d work it out among themselves and come and visit me one at a time. I said okay, but I was thinking, “They’re pretty young.” And I didn’t know for sure if that was what they wanted. The next day, the one they had elected president of the club was at the Paramount after the first show. This was in the morning, and we had two, two and a half hours between shows. She said, “Shall we go to your place?”
    The president was about seventeen. She looked Jewish, and she had a slender body but nicely shaped. She had pretty eyes. She was the most attractive of the four, with lovely skin, dark coloring. We left for the hotel. The guys in the band were watching, giving me those looks. The president was really enthused. She had a pretty dress on, and her eyes were all lit up. Her whole manner had changed. She’d suddenly become sexy and sure of herself and very womanly.
    We got out of the theater and it was chilly so I helped her on with her coat. And that was the part I felt bad about. Because when I’m with a woman and I’m very polite and mannerly it becomes like a love situation. I felt guilty when I put her coat on. And then she clutched my arm and it was as if we were lovers. I was hoping we could have got where we were going without all these formalities, walking on her right on the sidewalk, helping her across the street.
    It was too cold to walk to the hotel. Ordinarily, it was a nice walk, and I had hoped it would relax us, although she seemed completelyrelaxed. I was the one who was nervous. I hailed a cab and opened the door for her, and there was another little pang. We walked into the hotel and I really felt strange. I started feeling that the house detective was watching or the guy at the desk. Walking from the elevator to the room I thought, “What am I letting myself in for? Maybe this is some sort of weird plan to blackmail me or take pictures. Maybe somebody is going to break in and beat me up.” I remembered all these stories I’d heard about people being in the big city and getting taken; there were a lot of young people mixed up in terrible crimes. We got to the room. I closed the door. Locked it. My heart was pounding and I was almost to the point of telling her, “Let’s forget it.” But I had gone too far to stop, and I had been away from Patti for a long time, and I was going to be away from her for five months more, and the girl seemed so clean and nice.
    I had a bottle in my room, a bottle of vodka. I poured some in a glass and some orange juice. I asked her if she wanted a drink. She said, “Just a little one.” I drank mine down and then took a great big, straight shot of the vodka. She’s just standing there waiting for me. She’s still got her coat on. I took her coat and hung it in the closet. She’s still standing there, looking at me with this adoring look, and at last the feeling that was coming from her, this admiration, started getting to my ego, and I began to relax, but I didn’t know exactly what to do yet. I didn’t want to do anything that would spoil it—make a mistake or seem foolish. I sat down on the bed and started making small talk, “It’s a shame this isn’t a nicer place but being on the road we just have to take a little place like this because all we do is