similar?â
There are tons of books out there about kids who hop through space and time and visit magical worlds, so I guess Iâve always assumed that other dimensions are very different from ours. But maybe they donât have to be.
âIâve never really thought of it until now,â I told him.
âYeah,â he said. âMost people donât think about it until they have to. Can I be honest with you about something?â
âSure,â I said.
âI go to another dimension sometimes.â
He said it like he might say he goes to the movies sometimes, or to the mall sometimes. Like it was nothing.
âYou ⦠What do you mean?â
âI know it sounds strange to you, but hear me out.â He slid off his bed and moved to his dresser, where he pulled a pen out of a warped clay mug heâd made in art class. âI wanted you to listen to that tape to ease you into some things. These things Iâm going to tell you are pretty off-the-wall, but I think youâre open to a ⦠different way of thinking.â
âIâm your sister,â I said. âIt basically means you can tell me everything.â
His chuckle was now a full-fledged laugh. âIâm not sure if thatâs what it means,â he said.
âI love you,â I said, because as I mentioned before, I donât say that enough.
âThank you,â Alistair said. âYou might not after Iâm done talking, but thank you.â
Of course, I wanted him to say I love you too . I didnât need him to say it, but I wanted him to say it. What I needed was for him to understand what I truly felt.
âI will always love you,â I said this time, because Iâve never said that before. Because itâs true.
âThis whole thing started with a sister named Una who loved her brother,â he said. âActually, before even that, there was the wombat and the waterfall, but you already know that, donât you?â
I did. I knew exactly what he was talking about. Not this Una stuff. The wombat! The waterfall! I canât delve into the exact details right now, because the idea isnât fully formed yet, but as I told you before, it has to do with the ending of Lunaâs story. How would Alistair know about the ending when Iâd only written the beginning? It was scary, even scarier than the dead hummingbird a few weeks ago. I struggled to respond.
âYou know ⦠aboutâ¦â
âYouâre uncomfortable,â he said. âI can tell. Hear me out. Iâve seen your wombat. It has strands of glowing fur. Iâve seen your waterfall. Itâs in a dark forest, and the wombat is at the bottom of the pool beneath it.â
That was it, the exact image. It first came to me early that morning after Kyleâs shooting. I was showering, trying to wake up, trying to wash away my frightening new reality, one full of gunshots and missing kids. I know it was only in my mind, but at that moment the image seemed seared into the inner skin of my eyelids. Water crashing down. A shimmering pool. And at the bottom, a wombat, the strands of its fur glowing.
âWhere did you see it?â I asked, afraid of his answer, afraid of any answer.
âI saw it in the last scraps of memories I can access from a girl named Una,â he said.
I was tempted to walk out of the room then and there. What was my brother doing? Who was Una and how could he see her memories? How could he see mine?
âYouâre scaring me,â I said. âI donât understand what youâre saying.â
âIâm saying that the idea for the wombat didnât materialize from nothing. It originated somewhere. It found its way to you. Which means youâre special.â
It was cold outside. It was cold in his room. Yet my skin felt hot, like I was about to sweat. I didnât feel special. I felt sick.
âIdeas like that donât come