if you donât want a relationship, then Iâm your woman.â
âThat sounds like something of a contradiction.â
âYes, youâre right. It does.â Her eyes brimmed with laughter and the dimple was back in the corner of her mouth. âBut you know what I mean.â
Christian refused to allow himself to look at the dimple. âIâm not sure that I do. Lara, itâs impossible.â He didnât trust himself. âNo.â
âIf you say no, youâll regret it.â
âIâm saying no and Iâm not going to regret it.â Against his will, his eyes dropped to her mouthand his entire body throbbed with sexual tension. âItâs a wild, crazy idea.â
âYouâre just hesitating because of this whole stupid chemistry thing. But you donât need to worry. Itâs the perfect solution, Christian. Iâm on the early shift right up until Christmas so I can pick up the girls from school and take them home.â
âTheyâre on holiday for the four days before Christmas.â What was he saying? What did it matter when they were on holiday? He should have been saying no and pushing her out of the door.
She shrugged. âWe can mix and match our days off.â
There was a long, pulsating silence and he stared down at her. âWhy would you make that offer?â He was experienced enough with women to be wary.
âHonestly? Company.â She hesitated and then gave a twisted little smile. âThis is going to be the first year ever that my family wonât be together at Christmas and Iâm staying in London. Pathetic, isnât it? Iâm twenty-five and Iâm really sad that Iâm not going home for Christmas.â
âYou obviously have a close family.â Which made her lucky, not pathetic.
âYes. Well, if I moved in with you, I could still have a family Christmas.â
He felt himself wavering and tried to talk some sense into himself. It was a ridiculous suggestion. âApart from the trip to the grotto, I havenât thought about Christmas.â
âAggieâs thinking about it. She gave Santa a very long list. Someone needs to start shopping and unpacking boxes.â
âI know.â Christian ran a hand over his face, feeling trapped. âItâs a generous offer butâ¦no. I have to say no, Lara.â
She studied him for a moment. âIâm going to be frank here. You donât want a relationship, neither do I. Just in case you donât believe me and youâre worried that I might be difficult to shift, you ought to know that my flight to Sydney is on the 15th of January, and that isnât changing.â
âYouâre going to Sydney?â
âYes. Iâm visiting my brother and his girlfriend in Australia. And Iâll probably do a bit of travelling. So, you see, there isnât a problem becauseIâm leaving the country. How much safer do you need to feel? Christian, I can help you, I know I can. I can unpack the boxes in the house, I can put up Christmas decorations, I can organise you a big, happy family Christmas. And as for the chemistryâ¦â She waved a hand dismissively. âWeâll ignore it.â
Was that possible?
âYouâve resigned from your job?â
âYes.â
Why did he care? âYou seriously expect me to believe that you want to move in with two demanding children, a grouchy guy who hasnât even had time to unpack the boxes from his house move and cook Christmas dinner?â His voice was rougher than heâd intended. âItâs most womenâs idea of hell.â It had certainly been his wifeâs idea of hell.
âNot mine.âShe stuffed her hands into the pockets of her jeans. âLook, London is horrifically expensive for a nurse and my flat is tiny. On Christmas Day, itâs going to be me or the turkey. Thereâs certainly not room for both of
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