and
decide that it’s okay when I don’t see Hector anywhere. While nudity isn’t a
big deal for shifters, I have always been self-conscious. I’ve shifted in front
of others but not often and not without feeling weird about it. I shed my
things quickly and shift. It feels good to let her out. She’s in control now
and she’s looking up at him. She stretches and sniffs the ground. Damp and
earthy, well it’s dirt so, it smells like dirt. Maybe the smell means more to
her than it does me. She seems content with it.
I let her take over completely and
settle back to enjoy the ride. Jake has shifted now after greeting her again.
It’s been a long time since our wolves were near each other and the first time
that they’ve ever run together. Jake never hung out with me or my wolf. Maybe
because he knew that I was his mate and he didn’t trust his wolf not to mark
me. Maybe it was because he was a shit when we were younger and too busy
teasing me. Whatever the reason, it didn’t happen.
He nips at her ear and she loves
it. She nuzzles his face with her own putting her scent on him. He trots away
and she follows. Huh. She’s never been much of a follower but she has no
problem with it now. He’s wandering along and I feel the energy surge, she
wants to sprint.
She takes off, passing him and
sprinting ahead. She’s running as fast as she can, her paws pounding over the
ground. The grass is soft in the sunshine and warm under her. He’s coming up
behind her, she hears him, hears his yip and she goes faster. She only wants
one thing and that’s to expel all of this pent up energy. She goes faster, her
lungs are efficiently huffing the air and her heart is pounding but she
continues. He’s still behind her until he tackles her. She rolls and bounces
back to her feet facing him. I feel her excitement at the prospect of play but
he’s not happy with her. She drops her head and lays down in the grass
submitting to him. He walks past her without looking at her. Jake’s wolf is
like Jake. Maybe he has more control than I do of her. I only know what it’s
like to be in here.
She gets up and follows him. I can
feel her regret and anguish. He’s not pleased and she feels guilty. He leads us
to the top of a hill and sits. You can see the city from here. I didn’t come
for the view, I came here to run. I shift and stand over him after I scent the
air for other people. I fold my arms over my chest. The wolf looks up at me
then back at the skyline.
“I didn’t come here to sight see
Jake. I want to run. If we aren’t going to run then take me home.” I know it
sounds bitchy but I can’t help the way that I feel. He shifts but stays down.
He pats the ground next to him. I sit and huff out a breath. “I mean it Jake.”
“I know.” He says without looking
at me. “Just enjoy the sun for a minute would you?” I watch him.
“What’s wrong?” I ask.
“I like to hear the quiet.” I purse
my lips and shut up. He comes here for peace. Great.
“I’m going to run.” I say after a
few long minutes of silence. “It’s been a really long time and it’s safe here
right?” He nods. “Then I’m running. I won’t go far.”
“When you see signs turn back.” I
shift and sprint away from him. I run across the grass down the hill and up
another. I don’t see Jake anymore when I look back. She scents the air and
smells food. Her ears perk at the sound of voices.
“Oh look Amber isn’t it pretty?”
There is a woman with a child, then from behind a tree, a big man. The woman is
showing the little girl the big, bad wolf. She lifts her nose to twitch in the
air then let’s her tongue loll out.
“Stay away from it, it probably has
rabies.” What a jerk. She turns to go in the other direction and he claps his
hands at her. She’s startled. He’s trying to scare her. He’s on the other side
of the signs and she’s on her side. I don’t know what they say but I assume it
says private property. This is the