Whatâs wrong, sweetie?â Momâs hand covered Maggieâs on the table and Maggie turned her hand over, grabbing the softness of her motherâs, and held on. She tried to talk, but she was going to start crying and she couldnât do that.
She had to be strong.
To grow up.
That was the one thing she knew. Mac was counting on her to be a grown-up. âKellyâs missing.â
âI know. And I guess thatâs scary to you right now, but in the end, itâll be fine.â
No. Maggie could hardly breathe. She couldnât look at Mom. And then she did. Because she had to.
Maggie leaned forward. âTell me you didnât do this,â she whispered.
Mom leaned in farther and she didnât smell good at all. Like sweat and cigarette smoke. And her hair was greasy, too. âDo what, Maggie?â
Mom talked just as low so they wouldnât be heard.
âYou know, get rid of Kelly.â Maggie didnât want to think about that. It was bad enough knowing that Kelly was missing. She couldnât think about her being hurt.
Or worse.
Her best friend, Glenna, had been murdered. Kelly couldnât be, too. Maggie would just die.
âOh, Mags, youâre so young.â
Maggie gritted her teeth. She hated when Mom said that.
âJust tell me you didnât do it.â
âHow could I, sweetie? Look at me.â Mom held up her hands that were handcuffed for the visit, even though a guard stood right behind Maggie. âIâm locked in here. You know that.â
âTell me, Mom.â Although why it was so important to make her mom admit something, Maggie wasnât sure. It wasnât like she hadnât lied to her before.
She had. A lot.
âIâm telling you, Maggie. I didnât do it. I didnât do anything.â
âDo you know who did?â
Mom didnât say anything. She just looked at Maggie and shook her head, like this was one of those things Maggie was too young to understand.
But she wasnât too young. Sheâd been sold into the drug trade. One of her close friends had died of leukemia and another had been murdered. Her mom was in jail. She was in love with a man who was at least thirty. And sheâd had sex. There wasnât anything left that was young about her.
Mom rubbed Maggieâs palm with her fingers, and the chains at her wrist clanked against the table. âListen, Mags, this isnât stuff you need to be worrying about, okay? Iâm going to get out of here soon and weâll be together again. Just you and me. Like it used to be.â
âThey arenât going to let us live together again,â Maggie said. If her mother was behind Kellyâs disappearance, which was what Maggie was scared of, then she had to realize it would all be a waste.
She had to tell them to let Kelly go.
âYou admitted that you allowed Chuck Sewell to trick me into delivering drugs when I thought I was helping sick kids. Youâre guilty of child endangerment. They were going to take me away from you no matter what.â
Momâs face got stony-looking. âYou were never in any danger, Maggie. Not from the deliveries. I made certain of that. And the money was going to pay for you to go to college.â
So Mom said. âThen why isnât there more than the couple of hundred dollars I got for my paper route?â
âBecause we were just getting started.â Mom looked her straight in the eye and Maggie could tell how much she loved her. She loved Mom, too. Butâ¦
âYou were buying drugs and using them,â she said now. No one had ever told her that for sure, but she knew. She wasnât stupid.
âI wasnât doing much. Only enough to get me through sleeping with that Sewell creep so heâd stay away from you.â
Maggie didnât want to think about that. Didnât want to think about Chuck Sewell doing to Mom what Mac had done with her. It