past or future selves. They shoot them or think theyâre crazyââ
âBut not always,â I argued. âI wouldnât shoot myself, thatâs stupid.â
He shook his head again. âOK, do whatever you want. Donât say I didnât warn you.â Under his breath he said, âLike they say, youâd argue with a tree stump.â
âWhat else?â I asked.
He turned a page carefully. âMmm, you can only go to a moment, a specific time, once. No ifs, ands, or buts. You pick your moments by the date and time. Hope you remember exactly when these things happened that you want to change so bad.â
I ignored that.
âAnd it would probably be a good idea if you could only change one thing in each moment. Yeah. And you canât stay in the past or future more than â¦â He pursed his lips. âFive minutes.â
âWhat?!â I burst out.
âIt probably donât matter anyway. Some things you just canât change,â he said.
âWait, are you saying that my life is already decided? Like, fate? For real?â I asked.
âPlease, you think I know that kind of stuff?â he said. âThat really isnât my department, and Iâm already so regretting letting you do this. I think you should lay off the hard questions, OK?â
I rolled my eyes.
âYou can take whateverâs on your body. So you donât have to travel nakedâthatâs just messy.â
âThanks,â I said, getting smart. âBut wait, while Iâm not here, in the present, is time still moving? Or can I freeze time and go back or forward?â
He snorted. âAinât nobody can freeze time. No, time ⦠timeâs like a train. Youâve been on a train, right?â
I nodded.
âSo, like, youâre in your car in the middle. And usually you stay there. But there are other train cars behind your car and in front of it, too. All Iâm doing is giving you the key to the doors between the cars. But the whole train is still moving, see. Thatâs why you canât be gone too long from where youâre supposed to be, or else someone will notice.â
I thought about all that. I didnât want to admit it, but this was starting to make my head swim a little.
âThat train thingâthat makes it sound like you canât change anything. Like you always come back to the same place, no matter what,â I said.
He cocked his head. âLook, donât overthink it. Thatâs the best I can explain what I donât really understand myself. Are you sure you donât want to tell me whatâs going on with you? Maybe thereâs something better I could give you. How about sensing someoneâs weaknesses?â
I shook my head. âNaw, Iâm good. I can take care of it myself. OK, is that it?â
He smiled. âDonât you want to know how to do it?â
âOh, yeahâ¦â
âYou have to say past or future and then the date and time out loud and click your heels together three times.â
âWhat?!â
He showed me, pivoting his toes and banging the heels of his kicks together.
âYou look stupid,â I told him.
âNot as stupid as youâd feel if you accidentally time traveled when you didnât mean to. Like, if you disappeared right in front of someone. This will keep you from making mistakes. Plus, when you get to when youâre going, you can say, âToto, Iâve a feeling weâre not in Kansas anymore.ââ He started skipping around, whistling the song from that movie.
I figured Iâd gotten as much as I could from him.
âOK, thanks.â I wondered how to wake myself up. This dream had gone on long enough.
He stopped skipping and looked at me. âIâll be checking in. Iâm a little worried about this.â
I forced a smile. âIâll be fine.â
chapter three
I woke up right away. It