canât exist without training wheels. So I push-pedal up the street. I go by Mr. Lewisâs houseâthe nice man who took me to meet Gene UpshawâIâve got so much new information for him! Itâs about Reggie Jackson and Fred Biletnikoff and that song âSeasons in the Sun.â But he drops the garage door just before I get there. A couple of neighbor kids surround me. One boy starts in.
âYou canât really ride that bike.â
ââYes, I can.â
âNo, youâre a baby. You need training wheels.â
âCan too.â
âOkay, ride it down the hill.â
By now there are four or five kids around me. I hope for rescue, maybe the ice-cream truck? No, too early. Dad? Nope. His head is buried in the MG. I look down the hill. It is steep but clear, just one car at the bottom. The kids keep talking, crowding in on me.
And then Iâm off. Did I jump or was I pushed? Doesnât matter. Iâm flying down the pavement, picking up speed. Iâve never gone this fast in my life. And Iâm not tipping over!
But then I start heading left. This isnât surprising. I do everything to the left. Iâm heading straight for the car, actually a yellow pickup truck. I try to steer to the right, but I canât do anything to the right. I lean hard; maybe Iâll miss it.
No.
How long have I been lying here? Thirty seconds? A minute? Ten minutes? Where did the kids go? My bikeâs front fender is twisted in. I see a small, sharp dent in the truckâs grill. Mom isnât going to be happy. There are splashes of red on the handlebars. Where did that come from? I breathe in and hear a whistling noise. This is weird since I canât whistle. I feel a breeze on my gums. Thatâs not supposed to happen. I put my hand to my mouth and touch teeth where there should be skin.
Only then does it hit me. My face is ripped open below my lip. Still, I feel calm. I never feel calm. I know Dad will kill me if I just leave my bike here, so I slowly walk it back up the hill. The bent front wheel scrapes and wheezes every time it turns. My red shirt is a darker crimson by the time I get home. I walk into the garage and put my bike where itâs supposed to go. Dad is bent over with a wrench. I pull on his belt loop and he turns around.
âDad? Donât be mad.â
âJesus Christ.â
Itâs the first and last time I hear Dad swear. He picks me up and carries me inside. He wraps ice in a towel and holds it to my chin. For a second, he panics. What does he do? I see an opening.
âDad, I just want to stay here and watch Sesame Street. Just one show.â
That snaps him out of it. Weâre in his MG and the top is down. I donât even ask why we pass two hospitals so we can drive thirty miles to NAS Alameda. My chin is crusty and shredded, but Iâm happy. Iâm with Dad. We pull up to the base hospital and he half carries, half walks me through the doors. A nurse looks at me strangely. I know her from somewhere. Then it hits me: I know her from here. Iâve been here so many times the doctor told Mom that I should wear a helmet.
âNot you again. This is becoming once a month.â
Dad blushes purple, just like me when I get angry! The nurse takes us into an examination room and peels off my blood-soaked shirt. I give up my towel and a compress is pressed against my chin. Someone comes in and gives me a shot. I look up at Dad. He gazes back, his face covered in a five oâclock shadow even though it is barely noon. He brushes the hair out of my eyes. Iâm about to get nine stitches inside my mouth and nine more on the outside to close the wreck that is now my chin. And yet Iâm smiling, so much that I can feel the crusted blood cracking on my face. Iâm here with Dad and itâs just the two of us. So what if I had to lose a pint of blood for it to happen? Doesnât matter. It happened. I drift away to