said look at me.â He let go of my arm, grabbed hold of my chin and twisted my face upward. My heart was going fast.
âI saw you talking with that dirty little Tom Thrush the other day,â he said.
What had he overheard? âYes, sir, I might have been talking to him.â
He gave my chin a little shake. âI hope you havenât been fooling around with him, Annie.â
Mr. Hoggart should have known better than that. âNo, sir. All we ever did was talk a little.â
He shook my face again. âYou sure of that?â
âYes, sir. My ma warned me against those boys.â
âA good thing too. You see that you obey your ma. I can tell youâre not the kind whoâd have anything to do with those New York boys. You need a better sort of fellow.â
I didnât say anything, for I knew what he meant by that.
He shook me again. âWhat do you say to that?â
âMy ma says Iâm too young for fellows.â
âOh, come,â he said. âYouâre fifteen, arenât you? Youâre not a girl anymore. Youâre a woman. Youâre a woman and can do the things that women do.â
âPlease, sir, I have to get home.â
âTheyâll wait for you.â He let go of my chin.
âNow, Annie, you know I could do you a lot of good around the mill. Being the lamp girl is a much nicer job than working a slubbing billy.â
I looked down and didnât say anything. Suddenly he put his hand around my waist and pulled me toward him. For just a minute he held me like that, our faces a little bit apart. I could feel his breath on my cheek, and smell the rum. âCome on, Annie. I could make life a lot easier for Robert and you if you got friendly with me.â
I went on staring at him, feeling scared as could be. âPlease let me go,â I said. I started to squirm away.
He let me go and stood there looking at me. âBetter think about it,â he said in a harsh voice. âI can make life pretty nice for you and Robert, and I can make it pretty bad too.â
âYes, sir,â I said. I made a curtsy, and then I ran out of there and headed for home.
When I got home Pa and George were out in the barnyard, sawing firewood. Ma was in the kitchen, churning butter. âMa, he did it again.â
She looked at me. âWho? What?â
âMr. Hoggart. He came at me again. He grabbed hold of me and held me tight.â
Ma banged her hand down on the top of the churn. Then she looked me in the face. âAnnie, you swear itâs true.â
âI swear it, Ma.â
She went on looking me in the face. âHe grabbed you, touched you.â
âHe pulled me up against him, and I thought he was going to kiss me, but he didnât.â I shuddered, just remembering it. âIâve got to tell Pa.â
She looked off at the wall, thinking. âAnnie, you best leave that to me,â she said finally. âYour paâs got bad money troubles.â
âTroubles?â
âThe price of that blamed merino ram has burst. With the price up so high people were bound to take advantage of it. Somebody brought a shipload of them from Spain to New York. They arenât scarce anymore; and the price dropped and is still dropping, with no end in sight. Pa isnât going to get but a fraction of what he owes for his. He owes for the clock as well. People are beginning to get after him.â
âHe needs my wages, doesnât he, Ma?â
âWithout them heâs in a heap of trouble. If his creditors really want to be hard on him, he could go to prison.â
I just felt sick. âSo Iâm stuck,â I said. âHeâll keep me in the mill forever and ever.â
She sighed. âI hope not,â she said. âI wonât let him sign you on again for another six months if I can help it. But itâll be worse for all of us if he goes to debtorsâ prison. Iâll
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