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and backed away. The count laughed.
    " 'Tis no wonder the boy's a coward, with such a father. At least he's docile." The count waved a hand, and one of the Finyathan guards went off, to return in a few moments with a long rod bound in leather. "And you, sergeant, as you erred in choosing him, I don't doubt you'd like a chance to leave your mark on him?"
    Whether he wanted to or not, Gird could not tell, but the sergeant had no choice. That much was clear. Nor did he. He went to the stocks without resistance, hoping he could keep from crying out. He felt the scorn more than the blows, but the Finyathan guard, when the sergeant gave up the rod to him after four or five stripes, had evident delight in his work. The count watched, leaning on one elbow and chatting to the steward without taking his eyes off Gird's face. By the time his father came back with the cow, Gird had bruises and lumps from more than the rod. He had closed his eyes before they swelled shut, not wanting to see his former friends in the guards as they joined in.
    He woke face-down in a puddle of water that had been thrown over him, with the count's waspish voice saying "Take the oaf away, and pray I forget all this." His father's arm helped him up; outside the gates Arin too waited, to help him home.
    His head rang. He could not have made it without help. His mother and Kara cleaned the blood off, and muttered over the damage done to the shirt. The rest of that day and night he lay wrapped in a blanket, sipping the bitter brew his mother spooned down him at intervals. For himself, he'd have been glad to have wound-fever and die of it, to be at peace, for his old dreams tormented him like haunts, making mock of his pride. He twisted and groaned, until Arin woke and held him.
    "It's all right, Girdi. It's over now." But it was not over, and wouldn't be. He was sour with his own sweat, disgusted with himself, and shaking with fears he could not express. If things had gone so wrong so fast, what was safe? Arin's reassurance meant nothing. He remembered the look on the count's face, the delight in cruelty. He might have been killed—really killed—his life had hung on the count's whim.
    The next morning he forced his stiff, aching body out of bed. He was not sure he could work, but he knew he must. His mother had yet to remake his shirt from the ragged scraps left after his punishment, so she insisted he stay indoors. His father and Arin agreed. Indoors, then, he worked—back to childhood, he thought, scrubbing the stone hearth, washing dishes and pots, carrying buckets of water from the well. It was hot indoors, breathless as Midsummer usually was. Sweat stung in the welts and scrapes; he ignored it, shrugged away his mother's attempt to put a poultice on the deepest ones. She glared at him.
    "You may want a fever, to get out of work, but we've no time for that, lad. Stand you there and no more shifting, while I clean this out again." He felt himself flush, but stood. What else could he do? He had forfeited his chance to adult status. Her fingers were gentler than her voice. The sharp fragrance of herbs worked its way past his misery for a few moments as she stroked the heavy ointment on his back. " 'Tis a bad world, lad, where such things happen. But you see what comes of taking iron to mend them. Remember this: no matter how bad it seems, soldiering makes it worse. It always comes hardest on those with the least. Mind your father, keep out of the lord's eye: that's best. Notice brings trouble, no matter if it seems good at first. Remember what tree the forester chooses."
    He'd heard that often and often before. It was not in the Lady's ritual, but it was the village's favorite truth: notice brings trouble. As bad to be always first in reaping as always last; as bad to be richest as poorest. The tall tree catches the forester's eye, and the fattest ox suggests a feast. He had never liked it, since he could not have hidden among others even if he wanted to.