ROY COULD VISUALIZE THE EDGE OF A STEEP CLIFF, PROMPTING him to form a new outlook. The university had become his safeguard against the poverty and despair of home. His only concerns inside the university walls were studying, hanging out, romancing. and playing basketball. He started to think about never returning home, to the g-h-e-t-t-o.
Simon entered the room, throwing his luggage on the floor. âHey, Troy, how are yaâ? How was your holiday?â
Troy was stretched out on his bed, daydreaming. âIt was awâight. Nothinâ special. How was yours?â
Simon opened his suitcase across his bed to un-pack. âMan, it was great! I didnât want to come back to college. I seriously felt like dropping out. You just donât know how close I was, Troy,â he answered. âMy friend back home, heâs gonna travel to, like, Europe, Mexico, Jamaica, and Brazil.
âYou should hear this guy. Heâs got it all mapped out already. I was really ready to go with him, but I had already paid to come here. So I said, âNaw, ta hell with that.ââ
âYeah, well, I wish me and you could trade places, âcause I would say, âTa hell with college,â and go.â
âOh yeah, Troy, you wanna?â Simon asked with a smile.
âAre you crazy, man? I donât have the money to do that.â
âYeah, well thatâs too bad, âcause I wasnât going to go either. My dad paid too much money for me to go to college, to just throw it away.â
âLook, man, since your mom and pops own their own shit, you could just work for them and you wonât have to go to college,â Troy suggested.
Simon continued to put his things away. âI donât wanna do that. Plus, I donât really like computers and I would die in law school. Iâm thinking about owning my own consulting business, you know?â
âNaw, man, I donât know,â Troy told him.
âAw, quit pouting. You got better grades than me, and youâre on the basketball team. Youâre in a much better position than I am,â Simon said.
âYou really are crazy,â Troy commented. âI could never be in a better position than you. Youâre rich and fruitful compared to me. If I fail in college, I return to nothinâ. But if you fail, you got your folks. And youâre a White Jew anyway.â
Simon hunched his shoulders and frowned. âWhat does that have to do with anything? If you work hard, you succeed. Itâs just as simple as that.â
âYeah, well, we gonâ see, Simon. Iâll always remember that you said that. It doesnât matter that Iâm Black. If I work hard, I will succeed.â
Next day, Troy had a group meeting with all C.M.P. students to discuss college integrity. Ninety percent of the C.M.P. students were Black. The event was monitored by the five C.M.P. counselors. Four of them were Black and one counselor was Latino. Three counselors were men and two were women, including Troyâs counselor, Ms. Whatley.
âToday we want to have a group session to talk about your thoughts on college life so far. But before we start, I would like someone to answer something for me. Why did you come to college?â the short and stocky counselor named Paul asked.
A large, talkative girl was the first to answer. âI came to college to get a better job, which would put me in a higher economic position than what I am in now. I live in a nice home and all, but I want more.â
The rest of the freshman class agreed as Troy looked around, spotting Doc, Bruce, Clay, James, Peter, Reggie, Tanya, Lisa, and Matthew, along with several other freshmen he had met through C.M.P.
A smaller sister picked up where the first left off. âWell, specifically, I wanted to come to a White college because I wanted to learn how to deal with White people, for when you go out into the real world. I grew up in an all-Black