anger and fear was humiliation: she had been branded a busybody, carrying a mark every Kelantanese would recognize as a warning to cease interfering. Never mind that she was working at the express requestâno, demand â of the police. That might not be immediately apparent, but the mark she now bore certainly was.
She had not yet been told about Aliza, and Mamat was dreading the conversation. He wasnât sure why he was feeling so guilty; he had never encouraged Aliza to be involved, and had not known she was. (Even if she was, he didnât feel he had a real grasp of the story). But he felt obscurely that, as her father, he should have somehow known and stopped it. He thought grimly he should put a stop to it now, and also insist that Maryam stop investigating, once and for all, but he also knew that now she would never give it up until she found out who had done such a thing â not only to her, but to her daughter as well. He sat outside Alizaâs room, his head in his hands, considering his inability to protect his family, and occasionally, when he heard Osmanâs footsteps, lifting his head to glare at him.
Aliza had narrowly avoided serious damage, but had a large and ugly scar on the back of her head which had, of necessity, been shaved. It wrung Mamatâs heart to see her without her hair, looking so small and vulnerable. Ashikin spent most of the days she had been in the hospital sitting with her, even sleeping there with her.
Ashikin had also called her brother Azmi, serving in the army, who had been granted leave and rushed back to Kota Bharu. Maryam had been amazed and delighted to see him, but it frightened her too. She had begun to suspect, in a confused sort of way, that something else was terribly wrong. Why else would Azmi have left camp to come back?
The family gathered in Maryamâs room, and she watched with mounting fear as they all walked solemnly in, even Yi carrying Ashikinâs daughter Nuraini. At any other time, this would have set off a torrent of baby talk and delighted smiles all around, but now only Yi paid attention to her. âWhereâs Aliza?â Maryam asked, not as clearly as she would have liked.
Mamat looked uncomfortable, and took her hands. Maryam began to cry. âWhatâs happened to her? Is she dead?â
âWhy would you think that?â Mamat cried. He flinched from the very thought.
âNo, Mak ,â Ashikin swiftly took over. âSheâll be fine. Sheâs here too. Iâve been with her the whole time.â
âTell me.â Maryam attempted to stop crying, but could not. Mamat sat next to her, his arm around her shoulder, trying to calm her. â Sayang , she ran to get Rubiah when you were hurt. And on the way back, you see, Zaiton tried to grab her, and â¦â
âWhy?â
âIt seems Zaiton thought Rahim ⦠is that the right name?âAshikin nodded. âShe thought Rahim was there, when you were hurt. That she thought Rahim had hurt you.â
âRahim?â Maryam seemed dizzy.
âWell, thatâs what she said. And she grabbed Aliza when she was coming back home, and Aliza fought with her to get free, and she fell.â Mamat sat silent.
âAnd â¦â Maryam prompted.
âAnd she hit her head on a rock.â
Maryam began crying again. âOh no! It canât be!â She looked around. âWhere is she? Is she alright?â
âSheâs getting better,â Ashikin assured her. âShe still doesnât remember what happened very well, but the doctor says sheâll be fine.â
âThey had to shave her head!â Yi piped up.
Maryam stared at him. âOh no! When can I see her? I want to see her right now!â She climbed out of the bed and stood up, looked around, and fainted. Mamat caught her and placed her back on the bed, with Azmiâs help. âYou didnât have to tell her that!â Azmi told Yi. âShe