to lapping and nipping at her nipples, and she knew she was close to orgasm but couldn’t round the corner.
“I need more, Jack. I want you inside.” Her eyes were closed because she didn’t know what look would cross his face. If it was anything like the disappointment and disillusionment that had crossed his face before, it would devastate her. She didn’t feel him moving to do anything different, but she did feel him working harder on her breasts.
With him working her body from different angles, it didn’t take long for the loud moans to fill the room. She felt like a woman possessed, and she sounded like one too. Trying to stifle herself was only making it worse so she gave in to the waves of pleasure that ran over her body leaving her limp and satiated.
“Now it’s your turn,” she said when she could finally speak normally.
Placing a kiss on her lips, he withdrew from her body and moved off the bed. That orgasmic feeling of warm, calm bliss was fading fast as the feeling of panic came. Was this something he’d done out of guilt or pity?
“The guy in the tape you watched stopped shortly after he turned it off. He didn’t penetrate me with his cock.” She thought that would make it better, but now she wished she’d have just kept quiet. His face was a snarl of anger but she didn’t know for who. Did she remind him of what he’d seen on that tape? Was he upset with her? “Just in case you wondered.”
“I’m sorry I let that happen to you.” Jack looked at her like he was hurting as much as she was, and it made her want to scream and cry for them both.
“Jack, you didn’t let that happen. They were bad men with an agenda; you can’t hold yourself responsible for each and every person and what they do.” She was a firm believer in being accountable for your words and actions, but no one could be accountable for someone else.
“Those animals came after you because of who I am and what I do. They knew you were important to me, so they wanted to take your soft, sweetness and make you dirty. I wasn’t meant to have a woman like you.” The way he looked at her made her feel so cherished on one hand but discarded on the other. “I’m so sorry that I didn’t protect you the way that I should have and let you fall into the hands of those crazy men.”
“We’ve beat this, Jack. Now we can be together without having to drive hours out of the way of everyone.” She wanted so much to negate everything he said and just go back to loving each other, but his eyes were so cold. It was almost painful to behold.
“We beat it this time, but I can’t live looking for the next time someone decides to use you to hurt me. Watching another man touch your breasts and lick your pussy has filled me with rage. There was nothing I could do while you went through that hell, and there was nothing I could do until I even found out you were gone, but there is something I can do now. I can protect you by staying away from you.” Jack wasn’t giving up or relenting.
“So you’re giving up. You don’t want anyone to hurt me, but it’s okay if you do it. That doesn’t make any sense. How were you to know I was going to get abducted and assaulted? You didn’t. I don’t blame you for that.”
“Maybe you should,” he said in a grave voice filled with emotion.
“I can’t talk about maybes; I can only talk about what I know right now, and that is I want to be with you. I want to go back to the way we were before all of this, and I think you want that too.”
“There are a lot of things that I want, Natalie, but that doesn’t mean that I’m going to get them, and in this case it doesn’t look like you are going to get them either.”
She saw when resolution crossed his face, and she knew that he was going to lay her low. This wasn’t how she wanted it to end, but she didn’t know how to get out of it.
“This has to be over. The
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