always toted tools to him and brought small parts over. All while Mom watched TV or stayed in the kitchen baking or did the dishes. Mom seemed to take hours in the evenings doing the dishes. On Tuesday nights Mom went to bingo with Mrs. Murphy. That was the night Dad and I ate fast food in the truck on the way home and went straight to work on the car.
Dad had never taken a vacation before he got Bessie. But in the six years it took to fix her up, he took three weeks each year. Every day of it was spent with Bessie, except one day in the second year when Dad wanted to take me fishing. Mom was invited to come but decided against it, sighing when she said, âIt would be nice to do something as a family while youâre on vacation.â
âThis is a family trip,â Dad said, touching Momâs arm, an act as affectionate as Iâd ever seen between them. âIf you come with us.â
âI donât like fishing,â Mom said, pulling her arm away. âAnd you know it.â She went to their bedroom, shutting the door with a firm bang. Not a slam so much as an aggressive close.
The next day Dad told me we werenât going fishing. We were going to drive to Butter Pot Park with Aunt Henriettaâs fold-down camper trailer to camp for the whole weekend.
We didnât last one night. At about three in the morning we drove back to St. Johnâs. A small tear in the mesh around the trailer had allowed entry to tiny visitors. I awoke to a nightmarish choir of hundreds of whining mosquitoes and the feeling of them biting into my flesh. I started to cry. A rain that could soak you in seconds had started so Dad took me out of the trailer and into the truck in a garbage bag with holes cut out for my head and arms.
Mom and Dad were dripping wet on the ride back, the silence in the car broken only by our incessant scratching and the monotonous sound of the windshield wipers that lulled me into a restless sleep full of insect nightmares. When I was settled into my bed at home, calamine lotion on my numerous fly bites, I heard them first talking, then yelling, the sounds of their anger muffled by the walls between us.
On that day of my sixteenth birthday, I squealed in the rec room. As we were leaving to go to the garage, Mom came in and asked if everything was okay.
âMom, look what Dad gave me,â I said, my voice trembling with excitement.
âWow, heâs going to let you drive it. Heâs never even let me drive it.â She smiled at me then looked to Dad where her smile faded.
âNo, no, Mom, he gave her to me. Bessie is mine.â
She stared at the key in my hand until finally she reached over, kissed me on the cheek and whispered, in a dull and breaking voice, âThatâs wonderful. Happy birthday.â She turned and walked out, not even looking at Dad before she left.
âYou didnât tell Mom?â I asked, knowing that it didnât seem right to make such a large decision without her input. Bryce followed Mom outside and I heard them whispering in the hallway.
âYour mother donât bother with stuff like that. Iâd say sheâll be happy that the old car will belong to someone else. I think she might be a bit jealous of the old girl,â he said with a wink.
Dadâs words didnât change what I felt. As much as I wanted to get behind the wheel of that gorgeous old blue car, I saw something in Momâs face, a sadness I wanted to make better.
âMom,â I called out after her.
Mom poked her head back in and I saw the remnants of tears in her eyes.
âWant to drive her first?â
I didnât look at Dad, didnât want to see how he might feel about what I was doing with this very generous gift. I just looked at Mom and saw her face fill with a broad smile. I donât think Iâd ever seen her look so happy and so sad all at once.
âYou go ahead. Maybe another time,â she said, her voice thick with
Leigh Ann Lunsford, Chelsea Kuhel