thought we were talking about romance. I was paying attention. I missed the transition to a marathon.â
âFrom what Iâve seen love makes the iron man competition look like an ice cream social.â
âReally?â
He turned and met her gaze. âIâve watched guys I went to high school and college with fall in love, or a reasonable facsimile thereof. The next thing I knew, theyâd split for one reason or another and then itâs all about hurt and blame and making the person they supposedly loved pay. Alimony, child support, not to mention the emotional cost. A friend of mine is going through hell right now. His ex is using the kids as a weapon. She makes his life miserable, changes the rules, holds him to the letter of their agreement. No flexibility at all. It stinks.â
âThatâs a shame. Everyone loses. Especially the children. Take it from someone who knows.â
He put his hands on his hips. âIt seems wrong to use the legal system for revenge.â
This was a side to him that surprised her, a depth she hadnât suspected. Sheâd thought he was all charm and as shallow as a puddle. For some reason she felt the need to poke holes in his cynicism, bolster his boyish enthusiasm.
âSurely there are happy couples out there. What about Rosie and Steve?â
He shrugged. âThatâs different. Theyâve known each other since they were kids. I think theyâve always been in love.â
âIâm not sure why thatâs different. But, okay.â She thought for a minute. âNick and Abby?â
âSame thing. They have a long history together. Nick gave her her first job and helped her after her folks died in a car accident. She raised her younger sister Sarah and he was there for both of them.â
âAnd suddenly it turned to love?â
âI hear that skeptical note in your voice. I wouldnât describe it like that exactly. I think it was always there from the moment they met and it just took time for them to figure it out.â
He met her gaze. âOkay, and then thereâs my parents who have been together over three decades. Theyâre disgusting the way they still hold hands, make goo-goo eyes, etcetera.â
âI think thatâs sweet.â
âYeah. But given todayâs divorce statistics, who can match that?â
âSo youâre not going to try?â
âI have tried.â
âA lot?â she asked. She attempted a teasing note in the question, but found the subject still rubbed a raw spot inside her. Why? What possible difference could it make to her whether or not he had dated a lot? She had no intention of being next in his line of hopefuls.
He smiled. âI suppose a lot. Iâve met quite a few women.â
âIâd be surprised if you hadnât.â A guy as good-looking as him would have to barricade the door of a monastery to keep the hussy hordes at bay.
âYou didnât let me finish. Iâve met and dated a lot in my time, but I donât think love is in the cards for me.â
âBecause it hasnât happened?â Say yes, she thought, not willing to analyze why she cared whether or not heâd been in love.
âThereâs been no one special for the long haul. And because of the example my parents set and all the pain and misery Iâve seenâfailure is not an option.â
âSo youâre giving up?â
âI wouldnât put it like that. Stopped looking is more the way I see it. I choose not to try. Thereâs a difference. Somehow it seems nobler to take yourself out of the game than to play handicapped and blow it completely.â
âI suppose.â She shivered.
âAre you cold?â
âItâs getting chilly,â she admitted.
âI can do something about that.â He held out his hand.
Her heart beat double-time as she put her cold hand in his warm, strong one and let him