calmly. Will goes back to his book. He turns a page.
âJake?â repeats Maeve.
And when I donât say anything she hands me Edward. Just like that. As if he were a bundle or a book. I remember sitting very still, so scared I canât move. And then it happens. Edward opens his eyes and looks at me. His eyes are the dark mud-blue of the night sky, but there are surprising little flecks of gold in them. They stare right into my eyes. My heart begins to beat faster. I try to say something. I want to say that Edward is beautifulâ¦the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I want to say that I love him more than anything or anyone I know. But I am only three, and when I try to talk I canât say all those words.
âHis eyes,â I begin.
Maeve reaches out and smooths my hair. Her hand is cool and she smiles at me because she already knows what I canât say. Tears sting at the corners of my eyes. Maeve takes us bothâEdward and meâinto her arms.
âEdwardâs eyes,â I say into her shoulder, the tears coming at last. âEdwardâs eyes.â
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Edward is little.
I sat on the floor, leaning against the bathtub, trying to do my homework. Maeve sent me to check on Edward.
âDo it, Edward.â
He sat on the toilet, his legs dangling.
âWhereâs Motha?â he asked.
âIn the kitchen.â
âRead to me,â said Edward.
âPlease.â
âPlease,â repeated Edward.
I picked up one of his books. I didnât need to look at it. I knew it by heart. I closed my eyes. âIn the great green room there was a telephoneâ¦â
âFrench, maybe,â said Edward. Edward loved French.
I smiled. Edward was so used to hearing all of us talk that he often used words like âmaybeâ and âactuallyâ and âperhaps.â
âDans la grande chambre verte il y a un téléphoneâ¦â
âWhatâs that?â asked Edward, pointing to another book.
I picked up the baseball rule book.
ââThe infield fly rule in baseball,ââ I read. ââThe infield fly rule is there to prevent advantage to the fielders in a baseball game. The rule goes into effect when there are fewer than two outs and there are players on first and second base, or on first, second and third base. If it is a fair fly ball in the infield, the umpire can call âinfield flyâ or âbatter is out!â whether or not the ball is caught.ââ
âNow do it,â I said.
âWhy?â
âBecause everyone does it.â
âMaybe I donât want to,â said Edward.
I sighed.
âIf you donât go Iâll leave you here to get a ring around your bottom.â
âActually, I have one,â he said.
Sola appeared in the doorway.
âWhereâs Maeve? Whereâs Jack? What am I doing sitting here?â I said to her.
âYour turn,â said Sola. âI did it. Will and Wren did it. This family is a democracy.â
âEdward, please!â I pleaded.
âI want a dollar,â said Edward.
Sola bursts into laughter. She pulls a bill out of her jean pocket and hands it to him. We can hear her laughing down the hallway. Then it is silent in the bathroom. Edward looks at me for a moment, those blue eyes staring into mine. Then he jumps down from the toilet and flushes it.
He hands me the dollar.
âI went a long time ago,â he says. âThis is yours.â
Edward walks out the door and down the hallway. Then I hear him walking back. He stands in the doorway.
âThe infield fly rule is not dumb, you know,â he announces.
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It is Edwardâs first day of kindergarten.
âWeâll walk you to school, Edward,â said Wren.
âI know the way,â said Edward. âIâll walk ahead of you. Two steps.â
Edward held up two fingers.
Maeve looked a little sad.
âOh, I thought Iâd walk with