Piperâs voice was small as it came out, and she cleared her throat. âDo you think we got there in time?â
âI hope so.â Noahâs voice was stiff as he stared out the front window, and Piper wasnât sure if he was still processing the rescue ⦠or if he was upset about something else.
Thirty seconds later, she got her answer.
âWhy didnât you ever tell me about your parents, Piper?â His voice was soft, pained.
She sighed. âI donât know. I mean, how could I, really, without making you feel like I was passing judgment on the kind of lifestyle you were choosing?â
âWell, it certainly would have made a lot of things clearer, right from the start. I just thought you were cautious ⦠a little timid. I had no ideaâ this was why.â
She looked out her window. âThis ⦠is only part of it. I spent my entire childhood getting dragged from mountain to river to ski slope to cave. My parents spent hours trying to convince me to love what they did, but I hated it. Always hated it. By the time I was fifteen, theyâd stopped trying. I went along sometimes, but I was always the one with feet firmly planted on the ground.â
âWere you with them ⦠when it happened?â
âYes.â She looked down at her fingers, but they quickly grew blurry. âTwo feet on the ground, 911 at the ready. As usual. Mom had asked Dad to replace the ropes. She was worried they had too many miles on them, but he convinced her they were fine.â
His jaw tightened, but he didnât speak.
Piper shrugged slowly. âIt was bound to happen, right? I mean, the way they lived isnât normal. They flew in the face of the rules all the timeâthought they were smarter than nature, more experienced than the professionals who tried to give them advice. You play roulette enough times, and eventually youâre going to lose. They ⦠lost.â
Her breath caught as another realizationâone that had been crystal clear seven years agoâcrept back in.
And so will you, Noah. So will you.
âIs this why you never used to be able to sleep?â
She nodded, closing her eyes. âI couldnât get the movie of that day out of my head. It took years.â
âI wish youâd told me.â
âWould it have changed anything, Noah? Would you have done anything differently? Really?â
He turned toward her. âOf course I would have. I never knew why you were scared. I could have helped you, if Iâd known.â
âHelped me how?â
âI donât know.â He ran a frustrated hand through his hair. âI donât know. But I never had the chance to figure it out. And then you assumed Iâd suffer the same fate, soâ¦â
âWell, the similarities were a little hard to ignore.â
âPiper, when a rope is done, itâs done. And if you even think it might be done, you assume itâs done. You donât mess around with that. I donât know your parents, and I donât know how careful they were normally, but if your mom thought that rope needed replacing, then they never ever should have used it.â
He reached for her hand, and she let him take it. âIâm not being critical. Maybe it was a freak accident. Maybe the rope was fine and something weird happened. I get that. But Pipes, what I do isnât the same as what they were doing. This business isnât about risking my life. Itâs not just about chasing adrenaline. Itâs about challenging myself and pushing my own boundariesâand helping other people do the same. Itâs fun, but itâs the kind of fun that comes with a risk, and you mitigate that risk with equipment and experience and common sense.â
âWell ⦠they were zero for three, I guess.â
He nodded. âAnd unfortunately, itâs three for three or youâre done.â
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