commute.â
âAnd?â
âWell, I listen to music with my headphones to block out all the stupid chatting.â
âThatâs skimming, Mr. Uh ââ
âAaron.â
âI need you to do a close reading of the book.â She lifts up her hardcover version and holds it in front of me like a childâs picture book. I watch as she slowly turns through the pages. Itâs a mess of underlining and scrawls in different ink. It looks so personal she might as well be exposing her internal organs. âIf you want to do well in my course, you have to learn to mark up your books.â
I stare at the book and nod. Iâm no longer turned on. Iâm paying attention. Weird. Moreland looks at her overlarge silver watch and makes a shooing motion at me with the back of her hand.
âIf youâre interested in a less insulting grade, re-read it in a quiet place with no distractions and mark it up. Then come back and weâll talk.â I feel her watching me as I fumble to gather up my paper, book, backpack, and hoodie.
I head to the subway in a daze. Iâm already halfway to Mississauga when I realize Moreland didnât go critical about my writing skills. All Iâve got to do is read the book again and underline stuff. Write in the margins. I can do that.
Subway in rush hour, GO train delay, forever wait for the bus. I endure it. Suburb maze, stink of backyard barbecue, deathwish kids on skateboards. My parentsâ house is the only one on the block that needs a paint job. I open the front door and peer into the dim. My dadâs already sitting on the sofa in the front room with his beer, watching Jeopardy reruns.
âThat girl Ilana called for you,â he says to me. âWhat is 1976?â he adds to the TV. âShe says itâs really important this time, so I gave her your cell number again. Oh, Science for $400. Daily Double!â
âYeah, whatever.â I make sure to hang my coat on the hook by the door and take off my new Timberland boots so my mom doesnât yell. âJust keep telling her Iâm not home.â
âWell you werenât,â my dad says, still staring at his latest prized plasma screen. âWhat is hydrogen?â
âWell, even if I am, tell her Iâm not.â For an otherwise healthy guy my dad watches way too much TV. When he first got this new flat screen, he booked off work for two whole days just to watch it. Guess when youâre a self-employed chiropractor you can do whatever you want. I could handle that lifestyle. Itâs obviously way easier than trying to be an artist. Too bad I donât have any science credits. Iâd never get into chiro school.
Not that I want to wind up like my dad. The man never does anything.
âSupperâs in the fridge,â Dad says. âMom left a burger for you. Salad, too. Oh, what are T-cells? Yes!â
I sigh and head to the kitchen. I already know itâs not a real burger. My momâs been taking yoga classes after whatever she does at her downtown government job. That means natural this and organic that and a lot of tofu. Our dog Stan, a tired old basset hound, is sprawled out in front of his empty food bowl. He barely lifts his head when I walk in. When I try and feed him the soy patty he sniffs at it and looks away. I throw the patty into the compost bin and grab a bag of vegetable chips. I head downstairs into the basement.
My room, if you can call it that, with its half-finished walls and exposed wiring, is at the back of the house, beyond a jumble of broken appliances, old sports equipment, and a stack of televisions. You can trace the years with our failed consumer goods. Elliptical trainer, dead Discmans. Cellphones the size of shoes, old iMacs, a never-used breadmaker. The mangled frame of the second-hand Casio keyboard I threw down the stairs when my high school band broke up is mostly buried. The corpse of the electric guitar I