own.â
âReally?â
âSome donât, even if they have their own.â She tipped her head back and gave a small, sardonic laugh. âIâm sorry. Iâm making generalizations. I donât know what Iâm talking about.â
He turned his palm to hers and closed his hand around hers slowly. âYou see the people hanginâ outside the bowery?â
She glanced over her shoulder, between a couple of droopy branches and into the dusky perimeter. Shadows strolling, shadows giggling and chasing shadows. Shadows loitering and lingering in tête-à tête pose.
Celia smiled. âAh, yes.â
âThereâs some old-fashioned courting going on out there.â
âI thought this represented courting.â She nodded toward the dancers.
âIt does if youâre a bird.â He laughed. âI tried Fancy Dancing, but with two left feet, I was the one who laid an egg. Picked myself up off the ground, climbed on a horse and suddenly the chicks noticed me.â
âAnd you were how old?â
âAbout fifteen.â He squeezed her hand. âWhat else do you wanna know? I donât have a wife, or an ex-wife or a girlfriend. I do have an ex-girlfriend.â He lifted one shoulder. âShe got tired of waiting. Canât blame her.â
Holding hands. She was holding hands with a man, and her insides were jitterbugging. Ask an intelligent question, Celia.
âHow long were you over in the Middle East?â
âAltogether, thirty-two months.â
âThat would be hard on a relationship.â
âSome people have done three, even four tours between Iraq and Afghanistan. People who have families at homeâ¦â He glanced across the circle. Arm in arm, Mary and Logan were receiving well wishers. ââ¦should be with their families. I could do another tour, easy. So somebody with a family could come home.â
âDo you want to go back?â
âI donât know where I want to be. Except maybeâ¦â He turned to her, looked into her through her eyes in a way that thrilled and terrified her. Shewas the connection he had on his mind, and she wasnât sure he wanted it there. But there it was.
He cocked his head toward the perimeter. âCare to go for a stroll?â
She wanted to look away from the eyes that held hers, check with Mark, find something to hold her back, but she couldnât. The look in his eyes shifted from challenging to amused.
âHeâs still there.â
She smiled. âStill dancing?â
âStill dancing. Havinâ a hell of a time.â
She stood up from the end of the bench, and he followed suit. She gave his hand a squeeze. âYouâre making a statement here.â
â Youâre making a statement, teacher.â He gave a return squeeze as they emerged from the bowery onto the beaten path. âNobody knows me here. I amâwhatâs the expression? Off the reservation. â
âBut this is the reservation,â she accommodated him, laughing.
âNot mine. But, hey.â He leaned down close to her ear. âLet âem talk. I ainât afraid of Indian country.â
âOff the reservation,â she echoed as they strolled. âIndian country. Does any of that bother you?â
âYou know what bothers me? Chief. I donât wanna be called chief. First sergeant was good enough. Any rank with chief attachedâ¦â He shook his head.
âHow about commander-in-chief?â
âThey couldnât call me chief, then, could they?â
âHave they always just called you Cougar?â
âNope.â He looked at her, and for a moment she thought he might tell her his secret. Or one of them. He grinned. âBut they do now.â
She glanced into the bowery as they passed the drum circle. There was Mark trying out a new step, and there was Maxine, tending to her assignment.
âHey.â Cougar tugged
Stephen Arterburn, Nancy Rue