misses, there were some things better kept between the guys. Among firefighters, it was the bond of the brotherhood. Caleb nodded, clapped a hand around his friendâs arm, and left him to his thoughts.
BACK AT STATION One, the firemen climbed down from the trucks, shucking suspenders and heavy firefighting gear. Caleb battened down a loose hatch on the truck. Around the corner, Eric and Simmons were stepping out of their brush pants and boots. Despite the air of relief, there was palpable concern in the ranks. They couldâve lost a teenage girl. Or even lost one of their very own.
âHey, Lieutenant?â Eric said.
Simmons looked up. âYeah?â
âThis kinda thing doesnât happen all the time, does it?â
âRisking our lives? Yes. Playing chicken with a train? First time.â
âArenât you afraid of dying?â
Terrell was peeling off his jacket and he caught Calebâs eye. They both turned toward their comrade to hear his response.
âNo,â Simmons said, ââcause I know where Iâm going. I just donât want to get there âcause I got hit by a train.âHe grabbed his commemorative helmet and headed toward the doors at the back of the garage. âEric, why donât you come help me work on some dinner.â
âLong as you donât make me eat that hot sauce of yours.â
âThe Wrath of God?â
âStuffâs hot asââ
âHey, now.â
The two men brushed by the fire pole on their way out, and Caleb grinned at their repartee. He moved to follow them out of the bay, intending to write up a fire report before grabbing some food.
âHey, Capân.â Terrell stopped him. âHold up for a second.â
Caleb paused.
âYou, uh . . . you know where youâre going?â
âIâm going to my office,â Caleb said.
âNo, I mean . . .â Terrell fidgeted. âYou believe in heaven and hell?â
âI . . . I donât know.â
Wayne climbed down from the truck beside them.
âWell, when I die,â Terrell said, âIâm going in the ground, and thatâs where Iâm stayinâ.â
Caleb shrugged. âYou know, you and Michael both seem so sure. But one of you is wrong.â
Terrell sloughed that off. âIt ainât me.â
âHow do you know? Hey, listen, you might not agree with Michael, but you and I both know . . . heâs the real deal.â Caleb turned toward the back of the bay as Terrell folded his arms across his wide belly.
âWhat about you,Wayne?â Terrell said.
âDonât drag me into this.â
âMan, you believe in heaven and hell?â
âMaybe,âWayne confessed. âIâm open to the possibility.â
âIâm not.â
âYeah, we know.â
âWell, what if yâall are wrong and itâs all a big joke?â
âThen,â Wayne said, loud enough for Caleb to catch it, âI guess Iâll be stuck lying in the ground next to your sorry bones. And who says the dead canât dance?â
âYou kiddinâ? Youâre alive ,Wayne, and you still canât dance.â
THREE DAYS LATER, following a weekend that included softball games and birthday parties, Lieutenant Simmons walked back into the fire station. He was early, by twenty minutes. This gave him time to enjoy relaxing on a kitchen stool with the morningâs Albany Herald spread out on the counter.
To his left, a CPR poster hung from the wall. To his right, a list of janitorial duties was taped to a cupboard. Everywhere he was faced with the jobâs requirements, and he took them seriously.
During his two-year tour north of Baghdad, as an Army tank mechanic, heâd witnessed the daily struggle between life and death, between freedom and captivity. It was hard coming back to a complacent culture after seeing the things heâd seen. He felt, sometimes, as