he whispered.
"Yeah," I moaned my agreement. His pace increased, and the room started to spin. I was dizzy, and I felt nauseous. What the hell was happening? It took me a moment, but then I realized. I was having an orgasm. Holy mother of…my body jerked against Sean's, pushing up with a frenzied need to be closer to him. "Oh God," I screamed. "Sean!" I thought I heard him whisper something in my ear, but I couldn't be sure because I was awash in a myriad of glorious sensations that I wanted to last forever. His mouth came down over mine hard, kissing me, swallowing my moans and cries of pleasure.
"Yes," he hissed as his body jerked several times then stiffened. A second later he relaxed, and so did I. He buried his face in my neck, and I lazily stroked his sweat-dampened hair. I felt him shudder when I touched the back of his neck, and I smiled. It was so much better than I could've imagined.
CHAPTER 10
Sean McKenzie
I was having trouble catching my breath. The feel of Nicole's fingers caressing my neck didn't help. I knew I had to move. I had to look at her and talk to her. But I just couldn't find the strength despite the shaking in my arms. I'm sure it had everything to do with the fact that we'd just made love and my upper body strength wasn't anywhere near where it should be yet and nothing to do with the fact she'd lied to me. God, how could I have not known? It was so glaringly obvious to me in that moment but then it was too late. I knew it the moment I'd entered her. It surprised the hell out of me, but at that point it was too late to go back, and truth be told, I didn't want to.
"Nicole?" I whispered, kissing the crook of her neck.
"Yeah?"
The sound of her sultry voice made my gut clench. I adjusted my weight into my arms, smoothed the hair from her forehead, and gazed down at her. The sight of her rocked me to my core. She'd always been beautiful in my eyes, but right now with her disheveled hair pooled around her head, her flushed cheeks, and that hazy, satisfied look in her eyes, she looked like a goddess. I kissed her softly. "Why didn't you tell me you were a virgin?" As selfish as it was, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't over the moon thrilled with the fact she'd just given something to me she'd never given to another man. Still, I should've been told.
She attempted to look away, but I held her head so she had to look at me. "I don't know," she whispered with trembling lips.
"You should have told me."
"Why? Would it have made a difference?"
"Yes."
"If you had known, you wouldn't have…I mean, we…this wouldn't have happened?" She looked like she was ready to cry.
"Oh, it still would've happened," I assured her. "But, it would've been different. I would've made it more special for you."
"How?"
"I don't know." I sighed as I eased out of her and rolled onto my back. I immediately missed the warmth and safety of her body, and I wanted to be inside of her again. Hell, I wanted to stay there forever. To me, Nicole was home. She's where I belonged. I scooted into a sitting position so my back was against the headboard and dropped my head into my hands.
"No one deserves to lose their virginity like this, with someone like me, especially not you," I mumbled.
Nicole sat up and wrapped her arms around my neck, her mouth finding and kissing my ear. "It has nothing to do with where it happened, Sean, and everything to do with the person I shared it with."
"I know, and that's the problem. Your first time shouldn't have been with a cripple, Nicole. It's not fair to you. I'm only half a man. I can't do the things to you I want to do."
"Stop it right now, Sean. You're more of a man than anyone I've ever known. If your missing leg was a problem for me, I never would've invited you into my life, let alone my bedroom."
I turned my head to look at her. I'd never seen so much truth in one person's eyes before. "What're you saying?"
I'm pretty sure I understood her, but I wanted to be one hundred
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