Fisherâs fields. They wouldnât have quite as much fresh fruit as normal, nor as many fresh veget- ables, and of course there would be no honey, but they would manage. But there wasnât enough left to help the Fishers. It was the gardenerâs entire livelihood for the year that was gone, and there was nowhere near enough money in the Bell account to replace that.
Darius rested his elbows on the parapet that ran around the top of the clock tower, gazing across the fields. A pigeon landed on the parapet not far away from him and stood, side on, twitching its head, watching Darius with one red eye. Darius watched it back. The pigeon took a couple of steps closer, stopped, and regarded Darius again. Darius wondered what it was thinking. But pigeons donât think, he thought. Yet there must have been a reason for what it was doing. Something made it fly down here and land, and watch him, and take a couple of steps and watch him again. But the pigeon wasnât aware of the reason. Or was it? Darius wondered how you could ever know. For that matter, he wondered how much a person could ever really tell about himself. Maybe you thought you knew the reasons for the things you did, but maybe there were reasons behind the reasons, and you didnât know them. It didnât feel like it, but then it probably didnât feel to a pigeon that it was missing anything it should have known, either.
Darius gazed at the pigeon, wondering. The pigeon looked back at him. Its head twitched a couple of times, and then, for some reason â which Darius didnât know, and nor did the pigeon, if he was right â it flapped its wings, rose into the air, and glided down towards the ground.
Darius watched it go. The bird had taken his mind off his disappointment but now it came flooding back. He noticed someone walking through the bean field. It was Marguerite. He watched her as she reached the drive. Suddenly, like the pigeon, not stopping to think about it, he left the parapet and headed down.
He found her behind the house, sitting on a bench facing the grass. It was just about the only patch of grass left on the estate, and beyond it was the strawberry field â or at least the field where the strawberries would normally grow.
âHello,â he said.
Marguerite looked up at him. âHello.â
âDo you mind if I sit down?â
She shook her head.
Darius sat on the bench. âWhat are you doing?â
âJust sitting here.â
âWhat are you thinking about?â
âNothing.â
There was silence. They sat together on the bench, staring across the grass.
Sometimes kids at school teased Darius and said Marguerite was his girlfriend. She was his friend, that was for sure. They had grown up together. Marguerite was always sensible and always said what she really believed, which was a good combination. And if you ever needed help, she was someone you could always rely on.
âItâs funny there are no bees,â murmured Marguerite, gazing across the grass. âYou just think theyâre always going to be here â and then theyâre not.â
âI never really thought about them before,â said Darius. âI wish I had. I wish Iâd realised how important they are.â
Marguerite turned to him. âWhy? What difference would it have made?â
âI donât know. It just feels . . . it feels ridiculous that I never even thought about them and then suddenly they seem to be so important.â
âI suppose you never know how much you miss something until itâs gone.â
âThatâs like something Paul would say.â Darius paused. âExcept you actually used it when it made sense.â
âHeâs not so bad.â
âMarguerite, you should hear him. Heâs getting worse!â
âAnd he hasnât used that saying about the bees? Itâs so obvious.â
âMaybe he doesnât
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