this, you donât.â
What did he want from her, this man? Didnât he know how hard she tried? Didnât everybody know how hard she bloody tried? âThis isnât building my confidence, itâs undermining it,â she snapped. âWe only have five lessons and two weeks of daily swimming practice to get this right.â
âAnd youâre doing really well,â he soothed. âAll credit to you, Liz, I didnât think you could do it. Youâre a gutsy woman.â
âDamn right I am. You think this is easy?â
She was near tears and didnât know why. He was being so kind. And then suddenly she did know why. Liz got out of the pool, wrapped herself in a towel.
âRosie told you, didnât she? Who I was.â
Who I was ? That bothered Luke. Why was this woman disowning a past that only made her achievements more impressive? âYes.â
She looked down at him, her expression cool. Her pale hair, darkened to the color of wet sand, dripped water over her tense bare shoulders and made splotches on the burgundy towel.
âIf you want details, youâre going to be disappointed,â she said crisply. âI donât discuss my childhood.â
Yesterday he might have called her withdrawal coldness. âDid Harry know?â
The temperature plummeted below zero. âHe respected my decision not to talk about it.â
A mistake, Luke thought, but kept that opinion to himself. âYou know we have a similar background?â Heâd shared a sanitized version with Jo Swann of the Beacon Bay Chronicle yesterday and the article had appeared next to the picture of Saint Snowy.
âYes, I read it.â Her lip curled. âMaybe I should do the same, it might win me a few pity votes.â
âThat was my motivation,â he said evenly. âMight as well screw some benefit from a shitty childhood.â
Liz stumbled to a chair and sat down. âIâm sorry. I donât know what came over me.â
âWhat have you been telling people all these years?â
âOnly child, both parents deadâ¦Adopt a tragic expression and they back off pretty quickly.â
Now he understood her ambivalence about the campâit was a skeleton on her doorstep. âNo wonder you never accepted an invitation to visit.â
But she wasnât listening. âWho else has Rosie told?â
âNo one.â
She lifted her chin. âIâm a private person and I want to stay that way. No pity votes.â
âRosie wonât tell anyone else.â He lifted himself to sit at the side of the pool, feet dangling in the water. âYou know, Camp Chance is very different from the institutions we grew up in. Let me show you, Liz.â
But she was already shaking her head. âYou deal with the past your way,â she said. âIâll deal with it in mine. And I choose to forget.â
âBut you donât forget,â he said softly. âDo you?â
She clasped her wrist. âCan we get back to the swimming lesson now?â
âOf course.â Luke let the subject drop.
Liz got into the pool and started practicing with a terrified determination that was painful to watch. Knowing better than to interfere, he made comments where necessary, occasionally jumping in to correct her body position, mostly sitting on the side, watching her.
Beth had kept to herself, Rosie had said. One of those kids who got noticed by being quiet, being good. Luke had been a troublemaker himselfâit had certainly got him attention, too. The wrong kind. His thoughts became bleak, so he refocused on Liz, who was readying herself for another torpedo.
Already too slim, sheâd lost another couple of pounds, due more, he suspected, to a punishing schedule than daily swim practice. He made a mental note to buy some energy barsâ¦get some food into her.
She got to the other end and stood up, turned to him relieved.