poor. Itâs always the same people who are exploited. The only freedom that should be given to citizens is economic freedom. Weâve got to get back to basics: âTo each according to his means, to each according to his needs.â More than ever, the only real power is economic and thatâs whatwe have to take back. It wonât be by fair means, but by foul. Too bad if, once again, we have to eliminate the supporters of the old order. If we have failed to create a new revolution and not sent to the guillotine those who have usurped economic power, we shall have done nothing but gossip. Elections are merely a sham.
Iâm longing to know the results of your exams. Iâm not in the least worried â youâll pass with flying colours as usual. You have to learn to have self-confidence. As soon as youâve got your results, let me know. Did that little bugger Michel come by to take the records? I donât understand what heâs waiting for. If he doesnât make the most of the opportunity, too bad for him. Iâm not going to lend them to anyone else, except Franck. Itâs up to you. Iâm not giving them, Iâm lending themâ¦
Cécile wanted to reassure me: âYou know, when Pierre says âlittle buggerâ, he doesnât mean it unkindly.â
I did not want to take the lot. I made my selection. I counted out thirty-nine of them. Cécile refused to make a list.
âDonât worry, you can return them when he comes home. Heâs not giving them to you.â
I left twenty behind. They could be swapped if I wanted. True to form, Franck stuck his oar in. Pierreâs letter must have made him feel uncomfortable. He put on his bad-tempered expression.
âYouâd be better off swotting up your maths instead of listening to rock. Whatâs happened to your good resolutions? Vanished. Have you given up already? Youâll get failed next year and youâll regret it all your life. Pierreâs right, youâre just a little bugger.â
On the spur of the moment, I thought I was going to grab hold of him. Cécile came to my defence. We had something in common, she said. She was allergic to maths as well. She suffered from a basic incomprehension. Pierre had struggled with it for years. He had tried everything possible to help her improve. He had shouted. He had shaken her like a plum tree. In vain. She had been lucky to get herself out of it by doing a literature degree. Franck didnât miss a trick: âRight! Is that what you want to do? A literature degree?â
Cécile gave him a strange look. She was not amused. Because of me, the maths and the literature degree, they started to quarrel. The sound of their voices grew louder and increasingly sharp. Eventually they sounded like two watchdogs barking at one another. He went out, slamming the door. Cécile was annoyed. So was I. We sat on the sofa in silence. We thought Franck would come back. He did not come back.
âWhy do we have this problem?â she murmured.
âYou mustnât be cross with him; heâs not very smart at times. He doesnât think about what heâs saying.â
âIâm talking to you about maths, little broâ. We donât understand a thing. Itâs not normal.â
âItâs in our nature. Itâs nothing to be ashamed of. In general, maths brains are useless in literary matters and theyâre proud of it.â
But she was so resistant to my explanations that I gave up. She insisted that we had to resolve this problem. Since it was one we shared, we would join forces. If a guy who was gifted was incapable of teaching maths to an idiot, then perhaps two idiots could manage if they were taught together. She did not want to remain a failure. I was not convinced by her reasoning. If a lame man runs with two crutches, it doesnât make him a sprinter. But I was in no position to refuse. I agreed to her