their math. Iâm no nerd: itâs grade-five stuff. Anybody could do it. And the money is pretty good. Thereâs not much else a person my age can do that brings in $25 an hour. Not much thatâs legal anyway.
I knew I wanted a Mustang GT. My dad and I looked on the AutoTrader website until I found the perfect one last week. Low mileage. Recent year. A nice loud yellow.
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Dad offered to come with me to help me buy it. âClose the dealâ were his words, I think.
I said thanks, but no thanks. Standing on my own two feet and all.
A few days ago I went to meet the guy who was selling the car. Dmitri. He had beautiful eyes. He was handling the sale for his older brother, who was away on a navy mission in Somalia, where all those pirates have been hijacking cargo ships.
We took the car for a test drive. I was totally well-behaved behind the wheel. I wanted him to see that his brotherâs baby was going to a good home.
Dmitri and I talked for a long time. Mostly about cars and pirates, but also about our jobs and school and stuff like that. He goes to Geoffrey Marshall. Itâs pretty close to my school, Margaret May. But Marshallâs a lot bigger. And their teams always kick our teamsâ asses, so nobody talks them up too much.
I could see the car was in amazing shape. I bartered him down by a thousand anyway. I think he was surprised.
I surprised myself by holding it together under that gaze of his.
As I drove away, I glanced in my rearview. He was standing in the middle of the road, watching me.
My phone pinged five minutes later, while I was making a left onto Leach. I grabbed itâforget those stupid new lawsâand keyed in my password.
My stomach performed a full front flip.
It was a text from Dmitri. Howâ¦? Then I remembered. Iâd put my contact information on the bill of sale.
My thumb hovered over the Reply option. But in the end, I didnât answer him.
Thereâs no point. Thereâs nothing left of my heart. Nothing left to give. Nothing left to receive.
Nothing left to break.
Iâve got 260 âhorses under the hood,â as car freaks would say.
But Iâm not a car freak. I donât care about its torque or its compression ratio or even its fuel economy. I just care that itâs fast as a lighting bolt, and can carry me away from my living nightmare for even just a little bit.
Dad took the car out for a test drive when I brought it home. He was clearly impressed. When he handed me the keysâlike it was actually his car, as if he had anything to do with itâhe made me promise Iâd drive responsibly. I swore up and down that I would.
I wasnât so much lying as I was screening him from the full facts. Just like the times Iâd taken his Audi out on the freeway when he was sleeping off a boozy night with the fat cats downtown at the Ranchmenâs Club.
But now that Iâve got my own car, I donât have to steal Dadâs keys. I can keep it on the up. Makes me feel a bit better about myself.
For a second or two.
I kill the engine and sit in the driveway for a few minutes, looking at the darkened house. The thought of going inside, of washing my face, brushing my teeth and climbing into bed makes me even more tired. Briefly, I consider putting my seat back and just bagging out here. Dad wouldnât even notice I was gone. But itâs cold, and I guess Iâd rather spend the night in my bed.
Maybe, if Iâm lucky, I wonât dream about Adeâs accident tonight.
Chapter Three
I dream about Dmitri instead. Itâs a good dream. I wouldnât mind having it again. And again.
I wait for my breathing to return to normal, then open my eyes slowly.
The bright sunlight of early spring fills my bedroom, making the walls yellower than they really are. My eyes fall on a photo of me and Adrienne. Weâre standing in the doorway of the Palm Springs gondola. I remember that afternoon. How
Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni