the cat still asleep on the chair.
As I run down the back stairs
I hear Ellaâs dad calling her name.
I sprint the length
of the backyard
and take the rear fence in a single bound,
landing in the garden.
I laugh nervously
before strolling down the concrete path
and walking home
along Lake Road
wondering why everything looks the same,
when I know that
itâs all changed
forever
and for the better.
Scrambled eggs
When I get home
Dadâs asleep on the lounge
still in his work clothes,
a blanket kicked off on the floor.
His right hand covers his mouth
as if in shock from hearing bad news.
Perhaps heâs dreaming
of driving a truck
instead of riding a surfboard.
I sit in the chair opposite
trying hard to remember every moment
of last night with Ella.
I stare at Dad
alone on the lounge
and wonder why he didnât sleep in the bed.
I imagine how he must have felt
that first night
moving into this house with Mum
when they were young.
How they would have spent more time
in the bedroom than in the kitchen.
Itâs not gross
or stupid
or unbelievable.
Itâs worth saving,
worth remembering.
Dad opens his eyes
and attempts a smile,
scratching his three-day growth.
He struggles up from the lounge
and searches for his boots,
finding one under the lounge,
the other near the television.
He stretches,
before walking into the kitchen
and calling out behind him,
âScrambled eggs make everything better.â
Grateful
Dad has already set the table
with plates and cutlery for both of us
when I walk in.
He stands at the stove
keeping a close eye on the eggs.
The toast pops
and I place two slices on each plate.
Dad heaps eggs beside the toast
and pours us both tall glasses of juice.
âI didnât hear you come in last night,â he says.
I scoop the runny mixture onto a fork
and take a huge bite, chewing slowly.
âI stayed out,â I answer.
Dad raises an eyebrow.
âYou and Manx causing trouble again?â
I think of Manx, taking a swig of beer
and offering the bottle to Rachel.
I donât want to lie to Dad,
but what can I say?
He adds extra salt and pepper to his eggs.
âI stayed at a friendâs place,â I say.
Please donât ask me.
Please donât ask me.
Dad looks at me for a long time.
I pretend to be very interested in the eggs,
and my hand reaches for the pepper grinder
before I remember that I donât like pepper.
âWell, Iâll be buggered,â he says.
He leans across and refills my glass
before taking another mouthful of eggs.
We eat slowly
occasionally looking at each other and smiling.
Iâm grateful for the silence.
Too many of them
In the early afternoon,
I walk down to the lake
to find Manx
casting a line in our usual place.
âHey, lover boy!â says Manx.
I blush.
âHave you caught any?â I ask,
to change the subject.
âOnly weed â
the type you canât smoke,â Manx answers.
We sit together watching the line
go slack in the breeze.
âRachel told me
you talked her out of leaving school,â Manx says.
âIt didnât seem fair,â I reply.
âThereâs too many of them
and not enough of us.â
âDid you hear the news?â Manx asks.
He points across the water
to Patrickâs house at Tipping Point.
Two men stand on a scaffold
and blast a window
smeared in graffiti
with high-pressure hoses.
I look sideways at Manx.
âSomeone really doesnât like Mr Lloyd-Davis.â
I try not to laugh.
âHow much do you reckon they charge?â Manx asks,
looking at me before adding,
âDouble time on the weekend?â
âYou thinking of asking for a cut?â I ask.
Manx whistles and slowly winds in the line
before standing and casting once again
far into the lake.
The one that got away
An hour later,
we watch a police car pull up
outside Manxâs house.
Two cops