hat unusual.â She twirled around. âHow would you like to make me a hat just like this one?â
sixteen
Every day the leaves became more golden, the sky the color of fall: sharp blue, and cloudless. I found the materials for Mrs. Kochâs hat in a store called A. T. Stewart, and used Eliseâs pattern, except that I formed the base with buckram, which was stiff but not so rigid that I couldnât bend the edges to frame her face.
I had to laugh when Mrs. Koch told me no one else would have a hat like it. Of course not, since the bent edges were a mistake.
It was such a happy week, working on that hat, finishing it, trying it on Barbara and then on myself.
I tried not to think about the smallpox disease that so many people in our neighborhood had. On one of my trips to the park, Johann told me some people were being vaccinated against it.
A strange word,
vaccination
. I nearly fainted when I heard it meant to puncture the skin with a needle filled with the cowpox disease. How terrible, even though I heard that the Prussian soldiers had all been vaccinated during the war.
One morning I awoke uneasily, thinking about the day ahead. The Uncle was leaving, driving Mrs. Koch in her carriage to a lake somewhere in New York. Even though it was out of season, she wanted to take the waters for her constitution. They would be gone at least a week.
Taking the waters
I understood. In Baden, people took the waters all the time for their health. I wished Barbara and Maria could do that, too.
Maria had been sick for a few days, now her face flushed with fever, and the night before, Barbaraâs face had been red, too, her eyes heavy as she bent over the little girl, checking her arms, her legs, her stomach for signs of the pox. But âNothing,â she told me with relief. âNot one mark.â
I dressed and went into the kitchen, planning my day: Run up a few pairs of trousers to make the Uncle happy before I began a second hat for a friend of Mrs. Koch. Sweep the apartment, which gathered grime from outside every moment. Go downstairs for water and wash Mariaâs diapers. It was going to be a busy day.
The Uncle was still in the kitchen, his hand on Barbaraâs hair, looking worried. The Uncle, worried! We could hear Maria screaming in her crib. She sounded very much like the Uncle. I had to smile. Maria was much more appealing than he was.
âIâll bring her a bottle,â Barbara said.
âShe is like you, Dina, that baby,â the Uncle said.
And as I stared at him in shock, he sighed. âI must leave now.â
He said goodbye to them in the bedroom as I took a scoop of the meltwater to give Barbaraâs plant a drink. I looked carefully for the buds that Barbara promised were coming, but all I saw was a sturdy green stem with a few pale leaves.
The Uncle came back to the kitchen and hesitated. âIf something should happen . . . ,â he began, âI will not be here.â
I caught his eyes. âI will,â I said.
He stood there, chewing the edge of his lip, and then nodded. âAll right. I know you will do well facing trouble.â
For a moment I couldnât move. I couldnât speak. It was the nicest thing anyone had ever said to me.
I listened to his footsteps going down the stairs and went to the bedroom door. Maria was asleep already. Barbara sat on the edge of the bed resting her head on the iron bars of the babyâs crib, her eyes drooping, almost asleep herself.
I tiptoed in, touching her hair the way the Uncle had, moving her feet up onto the bed and covering her with the blanket. She nodded at me, whispering thanks, and I went back out to tackle the apartment.
The window over the air shaft in the kitchen was the worst. Nailed shut, it was always covered with an oily soot. I wondered what would happen if I removed the nails. Thinking about it, I went downstairs and lugged up the water, enough for a pailful of diapers and