turned to him for comfort in her time of need?
Sheâd never know the answer to, either, but the possibility that she could have changed her marriage, saved it, with a few whispered words, haunted her.
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Sitting at the kitchen table of Amandaâs house the next morning, finishing a cup of coffee after eating delicious blueberry pancakes, Liz smiled shakily at Cain as he stepped into the room. âGood morning.â
âGood morning.â
She might have kept secrets but she and Cain were now divorced, trying to get along while they worked together, not trying to reconcile. For that reason, sheâd decided that the story of her abusive father could remain her secret. But as she had paced the floor the night before, working all this out in her brain, she realized how much she wanted to tell him about their baby.
When they divorced, she had been too raw and too hurt herself to tell him. By the time sheâd gotten herself together, their paths never crossed. But now that their paths hadnât merely crossed, they were actually intersecting for the next several weeks; she couldnât keep the secret from him any more. Heâd created a child. Theyâd lost that child. He deserved to know. And she wanted to tell him.
Which left her with two problems. When sheâd tell him and how sheâd tell him. She might be ready to share, but he might not be ready to hear it. She had to be alert for another opportunity like the one the day beforeâ¦except when they were alone, not with other people.
Amanda turned from the stove. âAre you hungry, Cain? Iâm making blueberry pancakes.â
It was clear that Amanda reveled in the role of mom. Without the constant fear of her abusive husband she had blossomed. Joy was bright-eyed and happy, a little chatterbox who had entertained Liz all through breakfast. Amandaâs only remaining problem was Billy, her sixteen-year-old son. They hadnât been away from their violent father long enough for any one of them to have adjusted, but once they had, Liz was certain Amanda would think of some way to connect with her son.
As far as Amandaâs situation was concerned, Liz could relaxâ¦except for Cain, who hesitated just inside the kitchen door. Had he figured out sheâd kept secrets bigger than an allergy to cats? Was he angry? Would he confront her? She couldnât handle that. Telling him about their baby had to be on her terms. That would be better for both of them. It would be horrible if he confronted her now.
Finally he said, âIâve already eaten breakfast.â
Relief wanted to rush out of her on a long gust of air, but she held it back. Sheâd instructed him to take everything Amanda offered. The day before he could have easily begged off her barbecue by saying it was time to go home. But he couldnât so easily walk away from breakfast when he would be staying all morning.
Amanda said, âThatâs okay. Just have some coffee.â She reached for a mug from the cupboard by the stove, filled it and handed it to him. âSit for a minute.â
He took the coffee and he and Amanda ambled to chairs at the table, as Amandaâs sixteen-year-old son Billy stepped into the room, music headphones in his ears. Totally oblivious to the people at the table, he walked to the refrigerator and pulled out the milk.
Amanda cast an embarrassed glance at her son. âBilly, at least say good-morning.â
He ignored her.
She rose, walked over to him and took one of the headphones from his right ear. âGood morning,â she singsonged.
Billy sighed. âMorning.â
âSay good morning to our guests.â
He scowled toward the table. âGood morning.â
Liz had seen this a million times before. A teenager embarrassed that he had to count on a charity for a roof over his head frequently acted out. Especially the son of an abusive father. Even as Billy was probably glad to get away
Marina Chapman, Lynne Barrett-Lee