then, why give it all up? Why retire? Especially since he seems tailor-made to be the perfect hitman.
That's what I can't understand. It's like death deciding to hang up the scythe so he can go farm sunflowers in Kansas or something. It just doesn't make sense.
As I'm watching him sleep, I know I need to find out more. There's a reason I work evidence analysis for the FBI — I'm good at figuring out these kind of questions.
I head upstairs. I take each step super slow. Partly because making noise would mean waking up Ryker, and partly because my legs still feel like they're made out of half-formed jello.
The office door is unlocked. It opens quietly.
Inside is the perfect picture of military organization. It's a drill-sergeant's wet dream. There's a bookshelf of combat field manuals, language books, and other non-fiction pieces, all organized alphabetically and by subject.
The desktop is empty. Dust-free, spotless, and solid — its metal and seriously heavy-duty. It could probably even take a few gunshots and still hold onto its secrets.
Fortunately for me, it's not locked.
The first drawer is empty except for a few pens, paper clips, and some rubber bands. There's a wicked-sharp letter-opener in there as well.
The second drawer is full of files, manila folders, and dossiers on people ranging from war criminals to CEOs to heads-of-state. And all of their dirty secrets. I flip through a few of them, some of which have handwritten notes about everything from their taste in prostitutes to what brand of cigar they prefer.
A few famous names have X's over them.
Victims, maybe?
"Holy shit," I whisper.
Some of these names are real high-level. I recognize a couple drug lords and a few other names that are still riding high on the FBI's most wanted list. Bad men who've met a bad end.
We think these guys are still alive. He's knocked them off and made them fucking disappear and the FBI doesn't even know it.
Suddenly, I feel like I'm in illustrious company.
The third drawer has only two things in it. A photo of a man and a woman on a beach, both with surf boards. The man in the photo is definitely Ryker, though quite a few years and many miles younger. And he looks… happy . Almost carefree. It's weird. There's a smile on his face that just seems impossible to picture coming from the Ryker I know.
It's like that man who had that twinkle in his eye while he sang to me. Only many times over.
The picture itself is old. It's seen a lot of days in the sun, a lot of wrinkles, and a lot of time spent locked in this drawer.
The second picture is newer. It's taken from a distance, but I can pick out a Hello Kitty backpack, pigtails, a pink jacket, and purple moon boots.
"You really should have stayed in bed, Jessica."
The voice snaps me back to earth. I feel like I've been struck, physically. There's a warning in there that's just barely hidden.
Be careful, Jessica, things will turn very nasty if you don't watch yourself .
I stand up, still holding both pictures. And I disregard the warning. There's a reason I work so well in analysis: I don't stop asking questions.
"Who are these?"
"Put them back."
I hold my ground.
"What? Why? Do you think I'm going to put them in danger? I'm not a hitman. I'm a normal person. I'm no danger to anybody. All I do is work for the FBI pushing papers and writing memos."
Well, not really. I do way more than that, but now is not the time to break out my resume. Or my glowing performance reviews, thank-you-very-much.
Ryker sighs. He's probably just as spent as I am and, right now, real arguments seem exhausting .
To my surprise, he sits down on the floor in front of me and holds out his hand.
I pass him the first picture. There's a long moment while he looks at it, and for a second, there's a hint of a smile on his face that reminds me of the younger man in that photograph.
"This is Eleanor and me.