first time we had sex, I cried like a baby. And it wasnât because it was bad. Paul was a master performer in bed. He came at me like he wanted to take something I had. And just when I thought I was about to let him take it, he picked me up and sat me on a hard penis that made me give myself to him freely. But he didnât just sit there. He wrapped his arms around my waist and held my back up with his forearms. He wrapped his hands over my shoulders and thrust himself into me like he knew what Iâd been searching for.
âI canât,â I moaned, remembering how heâd come at me so many nights in the very bed that was just two feet away from us.
âYes you can,â Paul said, slipping his hand around my back to unzip my skirt. âLet me show you how much I miss you.â He licked my ear and whispered, âDonât you want this dick?â before sliding my hand over his throbbing penis.
I nearly fell to the floor along with my skirt.
âShit,â I whimpered before snatching my hand away.
Paul grabbed both of my arms and began kissing my neck wildly.
I was overwhelmed. I closed my eyes but I saw everything going on in the room. Hell, I even saw into the future. How his deep dark muscles would look once he took off his shirt. Him holding my hands to the headboard from behind. His chin resting in the cup between my neck and shoulder. His pelvis jerking and his pulsating just before he climaxed. âOh, fuck!â I sighed loudly. âDonât! Please donât! Stop!â
I took in another breath and quickly noticed that the heat that had been in front of me was gone. I opened my eyes and saw that Paul had let go of me and backed away. He looked lost, bewildered.
âWhat?â I asked. âWhatâs wrong?â
âYou just told me not to,â he said soberly.
âWhat?â
âYou said no and then you told me not to. You said, âPlease donât. Stop!â â
âSo?â
âSo, youâve never said that before,â he said.
âOf course I have.â
âNo. I wouldâve stopped. I canât touch you after you say something like that. Itâs just too . . .â
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âtoo . . .â
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ârapey.â
âRapey?â
âYes. Every man knows that. If a woman says no, and donât, you have to stop. You fucked up the mood.â He looked down at his crotch. âI mean, my dick is soft and everything. Nothing like a woman saying those words to make a brother go soft.â
âAre you freaking kidding?â I said.
âNo. Iâm not kidding. Nothing I can do about it now. Maybe you could . . .â
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âyou know . . .â
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âget me back up.â
âNo. Thatâs not what I meant,â I said. âI donât care about your dick getting soft. I didnât invite you here. You just showed up. I didnât even want to have sex with you.â
âOh no, youâre making it worse. Just stop talking,â Paul said, laughing nervously.
âLeave!â I pointed out of the bedroom. âSince youâre listening to everything I say now, follow my instructions and leave.â
âCome on, Kikiââ
âDonât you dare call me that again!â
It took ten more minutes to get Paul out the front door. He pulled out every trick in the book to try to make me feel sorry for âruining the mood,â but it was all pathetic because I wasnât trying to be in any moodâespecially not with him. Even if he quit his job and got a divorce tomorrow, he wasnât a better pick than Ronald. He was just a different kind of yesterday. As much as he wanted me and âmissed me,â he was the kind of man who wanted me to want and miss him more. That was what the whole scene in the bedroom was about. Somehow, I was supposed to be convinced that Iâd ruined a perfect evening by saying
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