Free Absent by Katie Williams Page B

I can barely keep myself from peeking around the corner to see what they’re doing. But I can’t. I’ve already embarrassed Usha with the scene in the cafeteria; I won’t have her blunder into God-knows-what secret meeting. Then I realize I don’t have to blunder anywhere. If I sneak out, back into the hallway, eventually Lucas and the mystery guy will leave the bathroom, and I’ll see them when they do.
    Back in the hall, I post myself by the trophy case across from the bathroom and stare at it as if I’m actually interested in these lumps of metal earned for jumping high, bouncing a rubber ball, or knocking some poor sucker unconscious. What I’m really interested in is the reflection in the glass case of the bathroom door behind me. In fact, I’m concentrating so hard on that door that I jump when I hear the whisper.
    “Usha?” a tiny voice says.
    Greenvale Greene stands just next to me. Even though she’s come from art class, she’s still in her gym clothes—an oversized Paul Revere sweatshirt and shorts that pull into a tight V over her crotch. The paddle of Mr. Fisk’s bathroom pass is pressed against her thigh, which is so pale that I can see the marbling of blue veins underneath the skin.
    “You weren’t by the mural,” she says, her voice phlegmy, as if she hasn’t spoken yet today.
    “I took a walk. For inspiration.”
    “All that paint is still there.” She fidgets. “You might want to put it away before someone pours it over the wall or floor or something.”
    “I don’t think anyone would do that.”
    “You don’t?”
    “It’s a memorial mural, so vandalizing it would be pretty harsh.”
    “Oh. I guess so.” She pulls at the hem of her shorts, not that the extra quarter inch covers much of her stick legs.
    I wait patiently for her to leave. She’s odd and, well, exasperating. No wonder people make fun of her. Why is she standing silent and fidgeting? Why not head on her way?
    Finally she says, “I’m sorry about your friend.”
    “Thanks,” I say; then, on impulse, “what happened to your regular clothes?”
    She looks down at her gym clothes as if she’s only just realized she’s wearing them. “Oh,” she says. “The toilet.”
    “The, um, what?”
    “Someone put them in the toilet while I was in gym class.”
    “That’s awful.”
    She sways in place. “I guess. After the last time it happened, I started keeping a spare set of gym clothes in my locker. See?” She plucks at the armpit of her sweatshirt, pulling the fabric up toward my face. “Freshly washed. Doesn’t smell.”
    “That’s okay.” I pull back. “I believe you.”
    When I step back, Greenvale takes my place and breathes on the streak of grease my fingers have left, lifting her sweatshirted hand to rub the glass clean.
    “Why bother?” I ask.
    “Oh.” She gestures at the gold and silver cups. “I think they’re pretty. I mean, imagine doing something like that.”
    For a moment, I try to imagine it—the globe of the ball between my hands, the ribbon breaking across my chest, the faraway roar from the stands—and maybe she’s right. Maybe it is something to imagine. But then I notice the reflection in the glass.
    The bathroom door. I haven’t been watching it.
    “Excuse me,” I say, leaving Greenvale by the trophy case.
    But when I push open the bathroom door, it’s too late. The bathroom is empty. Lucas Hayes and whoever he was meeting are long gone.
    Mr. Fisk has asked me to tape a sheet over the mural at the end of each day so that no one can see my (ahem) progress until I’m completely done. Honestly, I’m happy to cover up my blobby ovals. Besides, everyone will know why the sheet is up there anyway. As they pass, they won’t be able to help thinking of me. I’ll have my pick of them. I sit through physics, planning what I’ll do tomorrow, how I can undo the rumor of my suicide.
    After the final bell rings, I make it halfway to the parking lot before I stop abruptly in the