“And it’s starting early, because on Saturday we get to go to …”
“Marine Universe!”
Annie Pat chimes in happily. Marine Universe is near San Diego, where the Pacific Ocean is, and it is Annie Pat’s favorite treat, because she wants to be a marine biologist when she grows up. I want to be a nature scientist, but I’m not copying her. I have
always
wanted to be that.
Annie Pat’s father is taking us to Marine Universe to make up for having a new baby. We have been excited for exactly two and a half weeks.
“It’ll be great,” I say, as if she needs me to tell her that.
Annie Pat nods, smiling, then pulls a second apple for herself out of a crumpled brown paper bag. Moving shadows from the leaves overhead flicker across her face as her navy-blue eyes stare at the apple. Then she sighs and prepares to take a bite.
She is a very brave kid.
My name is Emma McGraw, and I am the smallest girl in Ms. Sanchez’s third-grade class at Oak Glen Primary School, although a boy named EllRay Jakes is even smaller than I am. Annie Pat is the second-smallest girl, after me, and we always eat lunch together—but not because of our size. It’s because we’re friends.
Also, like I just said, we both want to be scientists when we grow up. Pretty ones, with awesome clothes.
Also, Cynthia Harbison won’t let us eat with her anymore.
Cynthia is the bossiest girl in our class, andthe most popular. She always scrapes her chin-length hair back from her forehead with a plastic headband so that it looks perfectly neat, while my curly brown hair goes wherever it wants. And everything Cynthia wears looks new, while I sometimes look as if I got dressed in the dark.
It’s not that I’m a slob, but my mind is on other things, my mom always says.
Cynthia also has the loudest voice of any girl in our class. In fact, I can hear her talking right now. She is sitting at a table with some of the other girls in our class. “Fiona is my first-best friend today, and Heather is my second-best friend,” Cynthia is saying—mostly to Fiona and Heather. She takes a dainty nip at her sandwich. Its crusts are trimmed off, and it has been cut into triangles. Her mother is very well trained.
“Oooh!” Fiona says, thrilled. She blushes a little and flips her long, light-brown hair back over her shoulders.
“Oooh,” Heather says, sounding like a mourning dove. She looks as though she’s about to cry.
That’s Cynthia’s thing lately—rating her friends. And she sometimes also lists her enemies. But I guess she doesn’t feel like it today.
Annie Pat and I swap secret looks.
Relieved
looks.
But even though Cynthia didn’t announce this Monday that Annie Pat and I are her first-worst enemy and her second-worst enemy, and even though we have eaten enough lunch for two much bigger kids—or for four normal, us-sized kids—I have that empty feeling inside.
The feeling that comes when you feel left out—like the little lost fish who swims just outside the swooping school of matching fish.
Or left out like the migrating bird who gets separated from its flock somewhere in New Jersey and never gets to visit South America.
Or left out like the smallest, weakest hyena who does not get even a
taste
of the zebra feast. And none of the other hyenas even cares.
I have seen all these things—and worse!—on nature shows, which, in spite of the sad parts,are my favorite things to watch on TV. Annie Pat likes those programs, too.
“Let’s go, Emma,” she whispers to me, tugging at my sleeve. I can tell that she doesn’t want Cynthia, Fiona, or Heather to notice us, because they can be kind of boring, to tell the truth. Especially since they don’t want to be our friends anymore.
And school this afternoon is probably going to be boring enough. Why invite even
more
boring into our lives?
“Okay,” I whisper back. “We’ll throw our trash away and then go run around on the playground.”
This is an excellent idea I just had,