do.â
âWhen you starting the cut?â
âHarley should be bunching them right now.â I hesitated. âI canât be here for the work, but it ought not to take more than ten days, two weeks to get them to market.â
âYou going somewhere?â
âYeah. Iâll have to be gone about two or three weeks.â
âAny of my business where?â
I hesitated and gave Howard a good cussing in my mind. He was always wanting me to make a better effort to get along with Norris. And then he puts me in a position where Iâve got to hold out on my own brother. I said, âItâs that personal matter.â
âThatâs going to benefit the company?â
I gave a little half smile. âYeah. Letâs hope so.â
He suddenly stood up. âJusta, I want to ask you something and I want a straight answer.â
I looked at him. He was being firm. I said, âIf I can.â
âIs this some dangerous project that you are shutting me out of because you donât think I can handle myself? The way you always do?â
I wanted to laugh, but I knew better. âNo, no, it isnât. And I have never felt like you couldnât handle yourself. And I have never held you out of a dangerous situation for that reason. The few times . . . the very few times Iâve sent you home when there was threat of gunfire was because you are the only one can do your job. Ben and I can be replaced. You canât.â
He was not mollified. Mainly because what heâd said was true. I didnât want Norris around in a gunfight because heâd be someone else Iâd have to watch out for. He said, âIs Ben going? On this trip?â
âNo,â I said. Then I decided to hell with it. Iâd tell Norris just enough to salvage his feelings and let Howard do the lying. I said, âThis trip is for Howard. Itâs one of his last pieces of business. Probably the last heâll ever handle. Iâm just the errand boy. But Iâm breaking a confidence by telling you this. Anything else you want to know you go and ask him, but that will hurt him because he told me flat out that he didnât want another soul to know about it until it was over.â
He looked down at his desk for a second. Then he looked back up. âIâm sorry, Justa. I shouldnât have asked so damn many questions.â
âItâs your job,â I said. âJust keep in mind I told you this in confidence. Howard would hold me responsible if he knew Iâd told anyone else.â
âI understand,â he said. âWhat are you going to tell Nora?â
âOh,â I said, lying, âsome kind of cattle trip. Looking at a ranch. It doesnât make much difference. She never believes me anyway.â
He said, âThanks for moving so quick on the steers. Weâll make some nice short-term money on these bonds.â
I started to leave again, and then stopped. âOh, in case the mercantile delivers something up here you think ainât supposed to come to your office, donât think anything about it. Just have them set it out of the way. In a corner or something.â
His eyes narrowed. âWhat would the mercantile be delivering up here that I wouldnât think belonged up here?â
âKegs of nails,â I said.
âKegs of . . .â Then he stopped. âIâm asking too many questions again. I guess I canât help it.â
I guessed he couldnât either. Just as he couldnât help himself about every little detail he had to know about. He was worse about details than a drunk about how many drinks were left in the bottle. But I was trying to get along with him. Heâd asked if I was taking Ben because he knew I always took Ben if I was going into a serious situation. I didnât tell him I would have been taking Ben if Howard would have let me. Me taking Ray Hays wouldnât tell him anything because
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