meâwith the deepest, darkest secret of his life.
And as bad as I felt, as frightened, as upsetâI couldnât betray Sandy. As much as the words wanted to explode from my lips, I couldnât say them. I had to swallow them, to hold them in.
I let my gaze slide over to Hillary on the otherend of the couch. I could see by her expression that she was reading my thoughts.
Hillary wanted to tell, even more than me.
Hillary was so angry at Sandy, I knew she was bursting to tell.
Hillary was more upset than any of us that Sandy had confessed to us. Right from the beginning, she was furious that Sandy had involved us.
She slid a hand up and down her long braid. The other hand silently drummed the couch arm.
Hillary wouldnât tell, I knew.
And neither would I.
Officer Reed leaned forward on the ottoman. âYou must have heard some rumors,â he insisted. âYour classmatesâthey must have some thoughts about who murdered Al Freed.â
I shook my head. âEveryone is terribly upset,â I told him. âI mean, no one can believe it. Itâs all so unreal.â
âKids donât talk about it that much,â Hillary broke in. Her voice sounded tense and tight. âItâs too frightening. We all talk about graduation and stuff. I think we all want to forget, want to shove the whole thing to the back of our minds.â
âSheâs right,â I quickly agreed. Hillary was so smart. She could always put things into words better than me. âItâs supposed to be a happy time. For us seniors, I mean. People donât want to be reminded that something so horrible happened. Thatâs why I acted a little unhappy to see you at the front door.â
Officer Reed nodded grimly. He rubbed his broad forehead. Then he lowered his eyes to thelittle notepad. âLet me run a few names by you. See if they mean anything to you.â
He slowly read off a list of six or seven boysâ names. None of the boys were from Shadyside High. Hillary and I had never heard of any of them.
âAre those Alâs friends from Waynesbridge?â I asked.
Officer Reed tucked the notebook into his shirt pocket. âYeah. Some of them.â
âHe never brought them around,â I told him. âHe mostly hung out with them in Waynesbridge.â
âI see.â The police officer pulled himself to his feet. âThatâs all for now,â he said. âSorry to take up your time.â He nodded to my mother, who remained by the window.
âSorry we werenât any help,â I said, showing him to the front door. âIf I hear anything ⦠â
âPlease call,â he said. âGood night, everyone.â He stepped out the door.
I watched from the doorway until he climbed into his cruiser. I felt so relieved. Relieved that he was leaving. Relieved that I had fought down my urge to tell him the truth, to tell him everything I knew.
His car door slammed. The headlights flashed on. A few seconds later, he pulled silently away.
When he was out of sight, I closed the front door. As I returned to the living room, my heartbeat slowed to a normal pace, my hands felt warm again.
âI hope he finds the murderer soon,â Mom said, biting her bottom lip.
âI hope so,â I echoed.
Mom stood up. She raised her book. âIâm going upstairs to read. I canât put this book down, even though itâs scaring me to death.â She said good night to Hillary and headed up to her room.
I waited till she was upstairs. Then I whispered to Hillary, âWere you thinking what I was thinking?â
âYou mean about telling the policeman what we know?â
I nodded. âIt was on the tip of myââ
I stopped when I saw a flash of movement through the living room window. Just the flicker of a shadow. A darting move. Out in the front yard.
I cut the lights. Then, in total darkness, stepped up to the windowâand
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