small apartment on Waverly Place, a few blocks from Washington Square. Sometimes he would meet her in the square at dusk; she waited beneath the ornate archâspotlights grazing its white marble, the park and trees dim shadowsâlooking lonely and slight and vulnerable, until he came. She smiled and took his arm, and they would walk, talking and laughing, intoxicated by borrowed freedom, through the hustle of Macdougal Street for dinner at the Minetta Tavern, or up Cornelia to Bedford Street and Chumleyâsâits entrance still an unmarked door from its speakeasy daysâand sit in a dark corner listening to the loud talk of poets and artists and hangers-on, or to the Lionâs Head, passing Jimmy Walkerâs home on what Charles called âthe best block in Manhattan,â St. Lukeâs Place, a narrow, cobblestoned street flanked by gaslights and over-arching trees, its south side a row of scrubbed brick town houses from which Ruth selected favorites, all lined up in perfect symmetry, their black, wrought-iron railings rising with the steps to carved oak doors. Sometimes they might walk to the end of the Wharton Street Pier, watching the Hudson flow south toward Ellis Island, where Ruthâs great-grandfather had arrived from Russia. Once, at the foot of the pier, she took his picture.
Always they would go to Ruthâs.
Charles knew that they were still being followed, and resolved not to care.
He loved recapturing the feel of a single womanâs apartment, the smell of perfume and candle smoke, the clutter of books, antique lamps, recordings of Beethoven and Bach and manuscripts strewn on the bed and on top of her refrigerator. Finally, against all odds and knowing their incongruity, he loved her .
Naked, she was comic as a child, laughing as their passion overtook them, and joyous after. âYouâre beautiful,â she would say then, and her open, unforced wanting touched him beyond anything heâd known. Losing her awe of him, she learned something of his childhood and the humiliation of his marriage. She made love to him, and made him laugh. He grew to understand her humor and fear and radicalism, her uncanny sensitivity and the way she lectured herself aloud, âCome on, Ruthie, shape up,â as if she were her own parent. She had never satisfied her father. Her mother had killed herself when Ruth was thirteen.
They could speak of this, he found, as they could speak of her brother with a shared affection that brought them closer. Levy and Charles remained warm friends, perhaps warmer for a shared affection too fraught with the possibility of sadness to be easily discussed: Charles knew that Levy, knowing, understood that Charles lived with such complexity because he truly cared for Ruth.
âWhat do you think?â he often asked her. He listened more than talked, smiled when she swore, saw the harshness she affected for what it was. âThis city dries women out,â he told her. âThey fight the hustle and competition and men who only want to screw them until they turn to leather, all drive and double martinis and âheâs such a schmuck.â I suppose it has to be.â He smiled a little. âYouâre one of the smartest people I know, Ruthieâbe as tough as you like and take no shit from anyone. Just donât defend yourself so bitterly thereâs no softness left to defend.â
She took his hand. âThese men are so afraid ,â she said intently. âThereâs no one else like you.â
He smiled at her certainty. âThen itâs for me to guard the sweetness in you.â
She touched his face. Abruptly, she smiled. âAnd listen to my shit, Carey.â
He laughed out loud.
Feeling good for her, he grew better for himself. They dissected the manuscripts she worked on, sniffed out clues for helping her career, selected the first Charles Carey books. She bought Bombay gin for his martinis, insisting when