uneasy, and I was not looking forward to having to deal with it daily at the Muller estate â whatever Hans had said about its safety.
I could have pulled the bell to ask for her help in undressing, but as I was quite adept at this myself â as I was in styling my own hair, a skill my mother had forbidden me from ever mentioning â I got myself ready for bed, climbed under the covers (which the efficient Enid had heated with a warming pan), and blew out my candle.
At once, I was overcome with a feeling of foreboding. The room seemed to expand in the darkness. I became aware of the wind howling outside my window. Even the crackle from the fire seemed filled with a venomous menace. Although my father had been a vicar, and I had strong feelings that the preternatural and supernatural should stay quite separate from my world, I had in my previous exploits succumbed more to a belief in superstition than I would have liked.
The light of the fire ensured the room was not completely dark: instead it sent shadows dancing across the walls. I found myself checking them to be sure that they did not conceal another person. I plumped up my pillows and told myself to be rational. I had no feeling that someone was in the room with me â and as this had happened before, that in itself was reassuring â but yet my fear would not leave me. Of course, the circumstances that awaited me tomorrow â and my all-too-close involvement with the Stapleford family â would make for an uneasy time, but did I really think Richard would commit murder just before his wedding? Were my instincts warning me that death was about to enter my life yet again? I comforted myself that Richard, however evil his intentions, was not a quick thinker, though he was cunning. He had the sense to plan rather than act rashly. I consoled myself there was likely to be no immediate threat. And yet the unease lingered.
Lucinda was a puzzle to me. That anyone should link their life willingly with Richard Staplefordâs confused me, but she had appeared to be without guile. Either she was a consummate actress, or her fainting had been the result of her seeing for the first time the true nature of her husband-to-be. Were my instincts trying to tell me she was also in danger?
And Mary Hill â here? What if it was her? She had a fine mind, but she despised me. How could I draw her into my plans?
The thoughts went round and round in my head, but I could make no sense of them. I was on the verge of sleep when there was a sharp knock at my door. Instinctively, I grabbed at the nearest heavy object to hand â my unlit candlestick. I sat there, my heart beating furiously, waiting for whatever would happen next. There was another loud knock. Through my sleep-addled mind I realised that a would-be assailant would be unlikely to ask for entry. With a huge sigh, I threw back my warm and cosy covers. I could not have been lying there long as the fire still burned brightly. A third knock caused me to call out, âA moment!â while I struggled into my wrap and slipped shoes onto my feet. There was a very small part of me that wondered if it might be Rory; I own to both a slight disappointment as well as an unwelcome shock when I opened the door, and beheld the face flickering in the candlelight to be that of Mary Hill.
âThis is not my idea,â she said bluntly. âAt least not wholly my idea, but it seems you are the only person who might be able to help me.â
âCould not this discussion wait for daylight? Breakfast?â I asked wearily.
âNo, it could not. I only have Lucindaâs word that she will wait for my return.â
I looked at her blankly. âShe is threatening to run away into the night,â said Mary. âIt appears something happened tonight in your presence that distressed her very much.â
âI hardly spoke to her!â I objected.
âNo, no,â snapped Mary. âI am not