Free Stay Dead by Jessie Keane Page B

war zone and she was just
spoils, to be enjoyed as the man of the house thought fit.
    It went on, and on – until she was ill.
    Everyone was ill that winter; the flu bug was doing the rounds and sure enough the whole bloody family went down like ninepins. First it hit Edie, who’d been in the
hospital again getting her brain fried, and her usual sickness and nausea when she came home just went on and on, until they had to call the doctor out.
    ‘Influenza,’ he pronounced, and left. ‘Bed rest, liquids, warmth.’
    Then little Sandy, the weakest and youngest of the kids, fell victim, then Dick and Nigel, and finally Sarah, who’d been helping Dolly care for the whole damned lot of them. Inevitably,
Dolly herself got up one morning and fell back on to the bed, too hot and dizzy to stand. For two weeks it was Dad who had to do the honours, stopping off work to heat up soup to feed them all and
carrying buckets and bowls to and fro to all their sickbeds. Dolly was viciously glad to see him having to empty the shit and vomit in the khazi out in the back yard.
    Served him right.
    And there was a bonus to being ill; Dad didn’t come near. Didn’t want to catch a dose of the dreaded lurgy like she and the others had.
    The Devil looks after his own, thought Dolly as she watched her father faffing around the house, moaning like a drain about having to fetch and carry for them all. He didn’t get ill,
the bastard.
    But soon the family recovered. Sarah started making cups of tea and helping again, Edie crawled from her bed to the rocking chair and then downstairs to the kitchen to flop into her usual
seat there. The boys went back to school and Dad to work. But Dolly remained unwell; the flu didn’t seem to want to loosen its grip on her, and she was usually the strongest, the fittest of
the whole family.
    Eventually, Edie stirred herself enough to call the doctor out again. Dolly hated the doctor with his pompous air, she hated seeing the disgust on his face when he came into the house, into
the bedroom she shared with Sarah. He prodded her with a stone-cold stethoscope, had her sit up, pressed the cold horrible thing to her chest and back, told her to breathe out, breathe in. Then he
palpated her abdomen, looked at her face. He drew back, repacking his stethoscope in the Gladstone bag.
    ‘Do you have a due date?’ he asked.
    Dolly stared at him blankly. What the hell was he talking about?
    ‘How old are you, girl?’ He sounded exasperated.
    ‘Thirteen,’ said Dolly. She felt like she was about to be sick again. Every morning, she was sick as a dog, it was wearing her out
.
    ‘You know who the father is?’ Now he looked truly disgusted, like she’d crawled out from under a stone.
    ‘I don’t know . . .’ She had no idea what he meant. The father? What father?
    ‘You’re pregnant,’ said the doctor, and Dolly’s whole young world imploded.

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    She should have been able to turn to her mother at a time like this, but she couldn’t. Edie scarcely talked or moved or took any interest in anything these days.
Talking to her was like talking to a wall. You got just as much sense out of either one.
    To Dolly’s utter shame and humiliation, it was Dad the doctor talked to after his visit to her sickbed. She watched the two men conversing out on the landing, glancing back in at her,
and she saw the exact moment when Dad got the news; she saw all the colour leave his face in an instant, and despite her own shock and devastation she felt a stab of evil gladness. It shocked him,
did it, what he’d done to her? Well, good.
    After the doctor left, Dad came back upstairs. All the kids were out at school. Edie was off having her brains adjusted, there was only the two of them in the silent messy house, this awful
place that had become Dolly’s own private corner of hell over the last few years.
    He came and stood at the end of the bed and he looked awkward, his eyes shifting around the room, as if trying to