last week were rigid, glistening daggers in the weak sun, and the cove was frozen solid near the shoreline where the water wasnât deep. Too cold for burial. There would be an interment of her ashes in the spring when the ground warmed up. A spring she wouldnât see. The idea of an urn, or box, sitting on the undertakerâs shelf all winter was ineffably sad. Faith hoped Norahâs mother was keeping it at home, but some people found it too painful to have the tangible reminder of their loss in view.
Freeman had mentioned the brevity of Norahâs life and the unknown ways of the Almighty. Reconciling faith and reason seemed almost impossible at times like this. Since finding the body, Faith had had recurring regretsâthe âif onlyâsâ of life. If only sheâd stopped at the historical society early in the morning, the girl might have been alive and they could have gotten her to the medical center in time. Even when Earl called and told Faith that the coronerâs preliminary report indicated the time of death around two in the morning, Faith still felt there must have been something she, or someone else, could have done. The coroner was ruling it âaccidental.â Norah Taft had miscalculated the amount of heroin sheâd injectedâor calculated correctly if it had been suicide. Hers wouldnât have been a painful death, but it must have been a painful life.
Life. The white face, the white snow, the black sleigh vanished as Faith flashed back to a few hours ago and a very different faceâlittle Christopherâs. A death and a birth. There wasnât any connection, except the coincidence of her presence so close to each oneâa departure and an arrival. No connection, but yet, a feeling that there should be one, if only in a sense of the mystery of existence.
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âDark or light?â
âPardon?â Faith was startled into a sudden awareness of the scene around her.
âDark or light meat?â
Faith passed her plate to Nan, calling cheerfully, âA little of each, thank you.â The merry scene, which had been momentarily so far from her thoughts, returned and she was back. Christmas dinner. A Down East version of the Cratchits.
Years of catering all sorts of events and her own attendance at numerous family gatherings had not prepared her for the array of dishes in front of her. Turkey was the centerpieceâtwo of them. The birds had been carved by Freeman and his oldest son, Willie, and platters of the succulent, moist meat anchored each end of the table. The space between was covered with bowls of mashed potatoesâwhite and sweetâseveral kinds of cranberry molds and a quivering mass of something that looked like lime Jell-O and cottage cheese; dinner rolls; cornbread; biscuits; pumpkin muffins; slabs of butter; creamed spinach; pureed parsnips; candied carrots; pickled beets; Hoppinâ John from the Marshallsâ Southern daughter-in-law; the dilly beans and various concoctions that Nan and other women in the family had put up the previous summer; several kinds of stuffingâincluding Faithâs favorite with oystersâplenty of giblet gravy; a platter of crab puffs; chunky applesauce made from the apples in the old orchard near the shore; and finallyKraft macaroni and cheese, because some of the young fry were picky eaters. It wasnât haute cuisine; it was Marshall cuisine. Faith knew most of the family had gathered for thick, creamy lobster stew the night beforeâtheir Christmas Eve traditionâotherwise that would have been the first course. Nan had explained thisâand that they always skipped appetizers like cheese and crackers, because nobody wanted to fill up on anything before the main event.
âWhereâs my chutney, Ma?â Willie asked.
Nan jumped up. âI didnât forget. Just didnât bring it in.â She turned to the Fairchilds in explanation. âWillie has to