name. They took their accustomed seats and leaned back in silence.
âStrength will return,â said Salomon at last. âWe have found it does. What if a time came, when it did not?â
âFor me it has come,â said Merton. âVirtue has gone out of me.â
âIt has,â said Reuben. âWe saw and heard it going out. I suppose you will never smile again. I hardly feel that I shall.â
âFather will not, if I follow in his sacred steps. No one else is to tread in them.â
âIs anyone else able to?â said Salomon. âIt is on that score that he is troubled.â
âHe may feel some doubt of his work, and not welcome a competitor.â
âWhom does he see in that light? His doubt takes another direction.â
âHe must be conscious of his failings. He may feel that I may avoid them.â
âHe is conscious of other things that you may avoid.â
âI would rather write nothing than write as he doesâ
âWell, that should offer no problem.â
âI have already written, you know.â
âNothing we may see. We could all say that.â
âWell, the future will show.â
âI canât bear the future,â said Reuben. âWhy must we always harp on it?â
âThere is a past as well,â said Merton. âWe havehad new light on Fatherâs. No wonder you are his favourite, with your likeness to Aunt Emmeline. We feel how little we have known him. And feel there may be more to know. We can see that the trouble lives in Motherâs memory.â
âThat would not matter,â said Salomon. âBut it lives in Fatherâs.â
âHe ought to have a strange, mixed feeling for me,â said Reuben. âPerhaps he has.â
âHis feeling is mixed for all of us,â said Merton. âIt is not pure fatherly affection, as we have seen.â
âNo, it is also anxiety and fear for your future,â said Herewardâs voice. âYou are taking hasty steps on the path of life. I watch them with misgiving.â
âYou know what it is to have taken them,â said Merton.
âAnd so do not want you to know it. You will be wise to move with care. The forces about us are many. We have need of a sure foothold.â
âI wish Father would not talk as he writes,â murmured Merton, looking down.
âWe write from within,â said Hereward, keeping his eyes on his son. âWe write as we feel and live. It is the way to be honest and ourselves. It is as ourselves that all is done.â
âI have no doubt that I shall write as myself, Father.â
âMy boy, I wish you would. I hope you will. But you may be afraid of the natural springs and deeps. If you are, you fear yourself.â
âWe must know ourselves to write as them,â said Salomon. âAnd that might arouse fear.â
âIt means we must have courage,â said Hereward, as he closed the door.
âWe often need it,â said Merton. âI feel I have shown it to-day.â
âWe feel with you,â said Salomon. âWe wondered how much you would show. We did not show it. But we had to have it.â
Chapter VI
âWell, I have a word to say,â said Merton at the table, using a conscious tone and throwing up his brows. âIt may cause some surprise.â
âIt can only cause me pleasure,â said his mother. âI wondered if we should ever hear a word from you again.â
âA voice from the silence,â said Reuben. âWith a strangely familiar sound.â
âI have had to give some thought to my own life. It is a thing that no one will do for me. And I am about to tell you the result. You can hardly guess it.â
âYou have had a book accepted,â said Reuben. âNo, we should hardly have guessed it. I do feel some surprise.â
âI have not offered one. And when I spoke of my own life, I meant something