Free Everything That Rises Must Converge by Flannery O’Connor Page B

hated living with his mother and his idiot brother and he hated hearing about the damn dairy and the damn help and the damn broken machinery. But in spite of all he said, he never made any move to leave. He talked about Paris and Rome but he never went even to Atlanta.
    â€œYou’d go to those places and you’d get sick,” Mrs. May would say. “Who in Paris is going to see that you get a salt-free diet? And do you think if you married one of those odd numbers you take out that she would cook a salt-free diet for you? No indeed, she would not!” When she took this line, Wesley would turn himself roughly around in his chair and ignore her. Once when she had kept it up too long, he had snarled, “Well, why don’t you do something practical, Woman? Why don’t you pray for me like Mrs. Greenleaf would?”
    â€œI don’t like to hear you boys make jokes about religion,” she had said. “If you would go to church, you would meet some nice girls.”
    But it was impossible to tell them anything. When she looked at the two of them now, sitting on either side of the table, neither one caring the least if a stray bull ruined her herd—which was their herd, their future—when she looked at the two of them, one hunched over a paper and the other teetering back in his chair, grinning at her like an idiot, she wanted to jump up and beat her fist on the table and shout, “You’ll find out one of these days, you’ll find out what Reality is when it’s too late!”
    â€œMamma,” Scofield said, “don’t you get excited now but I’ll tell you whose bull that is.” He was looking at her wickedly. He let his chair drop forward and he got up. Then with his shoulders bent and his hands held up to cover his head, he tiptoed to the door. He backed into the hall and pulled the door almost to so that it hid all of him but his face. “You want to know, Sugarpie?” he asked.
    Mrs. May sat looking at him coldly.
    â€œThat’s O. T. and E. T.’s bull,” he said. “I collected from their nigger yesterday and he told me they were missing it,” and he showed her an exaggerated expanse of teeth and disappeared silently.
    Wesley looked up and laughed.
    Mrs. May turned her head forward again, her expression unaltered. “I am the only adult on this place,” she said. She leaned across the table and pulled the paper from the side of his plate. “Do you see how it’s going to be when I die and you boys have to handle him?” she began. “Do you see why he didn’t know whose bull that was? Because it was theirs. Do you see what I have to put up with? Do you see that if I hadn’t kept my foot on his neck all these years, you boys might be milking cows every morning at four o’clock?”
    Wesley pulled the paper back toward his plate and staring at her full in the face, he murmured, “I wouldn’t milk a cow to save your soul from hell.”
    â€œI know you wouldn’t,” she said in a brittle voice. She sat back and began rapidly turning her knife over at the side of her plate. “O. T. and E. T. are fine boys,” she said. “They ought to have been my sons.” The thought of this was so horrible that her vision of Wesley was blurred at once by a wall of tears. All she saw was his dark shape, rising quickly from the table. “And you two,” she cried, “you two should have belonged to that woman!”
    He was heading for the door.
    â€œWhen I die,” she said in a thin voice, “I don’t know what’s going to become of you.”
    â€œYou’re always yapping about when-you-die,” he growled as he rushed out, “but you look pretty healthy to me.
    For some time she sat where she was, looking straight ahead through the window across the room into a scene of indistinct greys and greens. She stretched her face and her neck muscles and drew in