helped Nathan clear a space by the window and fill it with marble chips. Then weâd spent a Saturday in the plant district on Sixth Avenue in Manhattan picking out trees and such. False aralia, schefflera, rubber plants, giant dieffenbachia, palms, a couple of figsâit was a little jungle. The last time Iâd seen it, the plants had been ripped from their pots and the dirt thrown over everything in the living room.
The office was like a morgue. Lily, Ramona, and the other secretaries sat at their desks, dabbing at their eyes with Kleenexes. Ramona motioned me into the lunchroom, where the lawyers were.
Flaherty sat at one end of the table, a cup of milky coffee and two Danishes in front of him. His blue eyes were red-rimmed. They teared up as I came over to him. I put my arms around his bulk and kissed him. He squeezed my hand.
âGod, Cass, what an awful thing,â he said. His voice nearly broke. I set my coffee down and sat next to him.
The others in the room were in better control than Flaherty, but just barely. Bill Pomerantz had the paper open, shaking his head as though he thought they might have made the whole thing up.
Jackie Bohan blew her nose and said, âI canât believe it. Nathan of all people.â
âI just hope I donât pick up any fucking burglary cases today,â Mario said bitterly. His mouth was ugly with hate. âIf I have to represent some fucking burglar the day after a friend of mine gets killed by one.â¦â
Flaherty cut him off. âThatâs your job,â he said, his voice hard. âDonât confuse your grief for Nathan with anything else, okay?â
Mario stalked out of the room, muttering, âJust donât ask me to get âem out of jail. Not today.â
Bill looked up from the paper, a disgusted look on his face. âChrist, what shit this is,â he said. âYou were right, Pat. They donât actually say it, but they hint like hell.â
âWhat do you mean?â I asked, alarmed. Iâd bought the paper because I was afraid of what they might say, but as far as I could see nothing had been said about Buttonâs Midnight Cowboy theory.
Flahertyâs voice was bitter. âItâs subtle. But itâs clear to anyone with a certain type of mind. âBachelor apartment.â âNo sign of forced entry.â âBound hand and foot on the bed.â It all adds up to âfag killing,â doesnât it?â
âFlaherty,â I said softly, trying to keep it between the two of us. âI was Nathanâs lover. Donât you think I would have known if he wasâlike that?â
He looked at me, an expression of pure misery on his normally humorous face. âI donât know, Cass. I want to believe you, but what about this?â He gestured at the paper. âIt does look like he knew whoever killed him. He let the killer in, and he letââ his voice choked, âhe let himself be tied up. How can you explain that?â
I couldnât. He went on. âOh, God, Cass.â His voice was achingly tight, and his face was pinched with pain. âI canât help but wonderâdid Nathan have a whole side to his personality that none of us knew about? A dark side?â
âThat business of having clients come to his houseââ Sylvia began.
âIt was dangerous,â Bill agreed. âStupid.â
âMaybe he was, like, courting death,â Sylvia offered. âA death wish. Unconsciously setting himself up. You know what I mean?â
âWhoever did it must have really hated him,â Jackie said. âThe way his apartment was destroyed. A real psycho.â
Flaherty looked at me, an appeal in his vivid blue eyes. Eyes that usually laughed and now could hardly keep from crying. âI feel betrayed,â he whispered.
So did I. But not by Nathan. By the people Iâd thought were his friends and who now stood ready to