drank the camomile, thinking about Blades and listening to my dadâs constant questions about the job, the money involved, whether there was more work coming, and what was for breakfast. When he drew breath I escaped to my room and discovered eleven new emails from Max, who seemed to have been compiling revenue-projection graphs and finding new equipment all night. One of them was a list of his top ten grappling hooks. When on earth would I ever need a grappling hook? The last email read, âJust say no. Between emails Iâve been cleaning the house and Iâve rubbed away all the skin on my hands. Coming down now. Typing hurts.â I knew there had to be a reason why he was being helpful. I wondered briefly about staging one of those quaint American âinterventionsâ, but on reflection I decided not to validate him. It was probably just a cry for attention.
The rest of the morning passed slowly. When I had been unemployed, days had drifted past like clouds or mobility scooters, but now that I was in the habit of being useful, doing nothing was just annoying.
I went downstairs to get my dad but I couldnât find him anywhere. I retraced my steps, like Mum would have told me to. Iâd put him down in the kitchen in front of some pancakes, but he wasnât there now. What did I normally do with him?
I found him curled up back in bed.
âGet up.â
âNo!â he moaned.
âYou canât waste a whole day in bed. What do you normally do?â
âSleep and watch telly.â
âWell today weâre going outside. Come on, itâll do you good.â
âDonât want to.â
âIf you get dressed Iâll buy you a pint.â
âFine,â he scowled, jumping up.
âIâll be waiting downstairs.â
When we got to the pub, we sat for a while in the manner of locals, silent with our thoughts, occasionally scraping the head off our top lips with our bottom lips, or saying, âMm.â Eventually, Dad rested his palms on his thighs, elbows out. His âman to manâ pose.
âGünter, we still need to talk about our home.â
âWhatâs there to talk about?â I asked.
âIâm getting red letters. Unless we come up with eight grand in the next few weeks, weâre going to be spending our evenings fighting over Special Brew.â
âCome on, Dad, donât be so melodramatic. It canât be that bad.â
âIt is that bad.â
âBut Mum had savings. She wouldnât just let usââ
âNo, Günter. She had a few hundred pounds.â
It shocked me that she had not left us provided for. The day I had lost my job to that cruel slump in dairy, she had stopped me at the bottom of the stairs, and stroked me pacifically on my upper arm.
âYou will always have a home here,â she had said. âNo matter what happens.â
But here we were. How could I blame her, if she had no way of knowing that she was lying?
Dad slammed his fist down on the table.
âShe didnât deserve it.â
âWho?â
âYour mother. She didnât deserve to go like that.â
âI know.â
âShe didnât deserve to ⦠we could haveââ
âIt was no oneâs fault,â I said soothingly.
âBut what ifââ
âNo.â I put down my pint. âJust try not to think about it.â
He threw back his beer, staring into the bottom with desolate eyes.
The remainder of my day of rest was spent buying us more beer and playing Scrabble until our stomachs were full and my father finally accepted that gumshoe wasnât a word. I know he was depressed, but I wasnât about to give him a triple-word score.
Over breakfast the next day, I pondered the unique ability of Dutch waffles to get a heart racing so soon after sleep. They were so heavy and sugary that, in all likelihood, my heart was pumping harder just to get the