us to bring you back anything for lunch?â
âAs long as it isnât a lobster roll,â Sammy says, making a face. âAfter our little fishing trip, I donât think I can ever eat one of those poor creatures again.â
I gesture toward the open window. âThe sunâs out again. Donât stay inside all day.â
Sammy promises to at least read on the deck and Irun downstairs and out the door, where Tess and Ray are waiting with the car.
âI think Sammy has a secret.â
Tess is a few feet ahead of me on the trail, her boots trampling over roots and fallen pine needles. She turns over her shoulder and gives me a doubting look.
âOur Sammy?â she asks. âSammy has never kept a secret in her life. Remember the surprise party debacle?â
A few years back, Terry and Tess and Sam and my parents got together to throw me an epic surprise bash at Disneyland, of all places. There was an elaborate cover involving a music video shoot, and I thought we were just going to work. But the night before, Sammy let slip that the massive icebox cake sheâd ordered (my favorite) would have to be picked up in the morning.
âRemember she tried to play it off?â I chuckle. âLike it was a surprise party for somebody on the crew, who also happened to have a birthday and love theme parks and icebox cakes?â
Tess laughs and stops in the middle of the trail, crossing her arms over her waist like sheâs fighting off a cramp. âOh man.â She sighs, catching her breath. âSo whatâs the secret?â
âWhat do you mean?â I blurt. My journal and phoneare burning holes in the pocket of my sweatshirt, and Iâve been thinking about sneaking a text to Noel all morning.
âYou said Sam has a secret,â Tess reminds me, her eyebrows arched in suspicion. âSomebodyâs jumpy.â
âSorry,â I say, pushing on through an opening in the trees. âThereâs just no way she cares that much about a book. She was being kind of weird this morning.â
âWell, that makes two of you,â Tess says, hustling to catch up.
I force a grin. âAre those blueberries?â I ask, a not-so-subtle attempt at changing the subject. Luckily, Tess is an undercover nature freak, the hidden underbelly of her city-girl status that grew out of her summers here on the island and at camp.
âYup.â Tess nods, bending down to pick the tiny, wrinkled berries. She pops a few in her mouth and hands the rest to me. They are sweet and tart at the same time, nothing like the mushy, tasteless fruit you find in stores.
âWow,â I say. âThese are incredible.â
âGood things come in small packages.â At barely five feet tall, Tess is a sucker for anything tiny. âCome on,â she urges. âWeâre almost to the summit.â
Out of the corner of my eye I spot a wooden bench, wedged between a pair of pine trees. âDo you mind if I meet you up there? I want to write down some lyrics before I forget them.â
âNew song?â Tess turns around quickly, and thereâs a glimmer of relief in her eyes that makes my stomach clench. She and Sammy have bent over backward for me, encouraging me to take a break, to recharge, but deep down, they must be scared, too. In a lot of ways, my career is their career.
âMaybe,â I say carefully, afraid to commit to too much. âIâm not sure yet.â
Tess gives me an encouraging nod. âYou got this, Bird.â
I manage a strained smile and watch as she starts back on the trail. âSee you at the top!â She calls over her shoulder, disappearing around a wooded bend.
I follow the sandy path out to the small point and sit down on the bench that overlooks the water. In the distance there is a collection of smaller islands, connected by narrow patches of marshland. Shorebirds race up and down the pebbly coast, chasing one another
Debby Herbenick, Vanessa Schick