Free Holding Up the Universe by Jennifer Niven Page B

I’ve let myself down.
    The gray-headed woman props her elbows on the desk and leans forward. “I’m not going to suspend you or expel you. Not this time. Instead the two of you will perform community service together, only instead of doing this for the community, it will be community-type service for the school. We’re putting you in charge of painting the bleachers and the locker rooms. Mr. Sweeney will supervise.” The giant nods at us.
    “The two of you will also meet with a counselor every day after school for the next few weeks. The Conversation Circle is being used effectively at more and more schools across the country, and I believe it will also be effective here. It’s important that you learn from the experience and each other. Mr. Levine”—the skinny guy waves—“specializes in some of the most prevalent issues affecting teens today, including bullying, prejudice, and sexual harassment.”
    I clear my throat, which still feels raw. “I don’t think it’s fair to punish her for something I instigated. I’d rather serve the time for both of us.”
    Libby goes, “You are unbelievable.”
    “What?”
    “You don’t get to be the villain
and
the hero.”
    Principal Wasserman says, “Thank you, Jack, but Libby broke the rules as well.”
    —
    As we leave, I try to say “I’m sorry” again, but Libby’s father wraps his arm around her shoulders and steers her away.
    In the parking lot, my mom says, “We’ll discuss this at home, Jack Henry.” My full name. Something she hasn’t called me in years. She drives off without another word.
    I go directly to Masselin’s, hoping to slink in and bypass everyone—namely my dad. I’m barely settled behind the office desk when he comes walking in. “I heard what happened today. What the hell were you thinking?”
    I tell him I don’t know, that it was meant to be a prank, but it ended up being a really stupid idea, and I wish I hadn’t done it, and all the other things I’ve spent the past few hours saying over and over.
    “Your mother and I are disappointed in you.”
    As if he needs to tell me this. I want to say
I’m disappointed in you too.
But instead I say, “I know. I’m sorry.”
    When I’m finally alone, I turn on my phone. It immediately blows up with voicemails and texts. There’s Caroline, Seth, Bailey Bishop, Kam, and about a hundred other people, including Marcus, who know all about what happened.
    Bailey Bishop is crying because she can’t believe I would do something so hurtful to another human being. Caroline talks mostly about herself, but my brother actually wants to know if I’m okay and what happened with the principal.
    Kam’s message says,
Congrats, princess. You win. Choose the place so we can take your sorry ass out for a victory meal. But hey, do me a favor and don’t get your ass kicked by any other girls before then.
Followed by an entire minute of laughter.

The radio is playing, but the volume is low, and my dad is talking on and on. When he brings up homeschooling again, I say, “You don’t need to worry about me. I can take care of myself.”
    “You really punched him?”
    “Right in the mouth.”
    And then he laughs.
    “Are you
laughing
?”
    “I think I am.”
    “You’re not supposed to laugh. You’re supposed to tell me violence never solves anything and take away my phone or something.”
    “Don’t punch anyone again. And if it makes you feel better, give me your phone.” And he just keeps on laughing.
    And now I’m laughing too. And for the first time in a long time, I feel normal, weird as that sounds. We feel normal. Which makes me think what happened today wasn’t so bad after all, and maybe all the humiliation and the upcoming hours of community service and counseling are worth this single moment.
    As we pull up to our house, Dad says, “Don’t let that boy get in your head. Don’t let him take away what you’ve worked so hard for.”
    “I won’t. I’m getting up tomorrow and