Free Sex and the Confession Box by M.H.O'Hara

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    Patting myself all clean and wrapping up in the hotels towel robes I came back into the room to the smell of cigar. There was Clarke so contented smoking on his cigar feet stretched up at the window looking down over Belfast. Don’t you look all cosy he said thank you. I lifted my glass took a whiff smelled just like whiskey and took a sip.

Oh! I said wow that’s strong, made me feel woozy after all that throwing up. Would you mind if I just finished of the champagne shame to let it go to waste. No, no not at all just give that to me, as he emptied the contents of my glass into his. I poured some champers it was still cold though all the ice had melted, just a pool of icy water. I walked over to the window and gazed out with him, till him pulled me onto his lap. Your my favourite, best I’ve ever had, I thought am I the first to vomit after having sex with you or whatever that was? How’s about you and I coming to some arrangement, like what I said bemused, and dreading what was coming oh god not more kinky shit!!I pay Doreen £500  plus what you get how would you feel if we bypassed her and I go direct to you I’d still give you what you more than deservedly earned £1,500 and save me £500 ,so each time I’m in town in business I call you and not her, what do you say.? I’m wasn’t sure I could do what I just did ever again and I didn’t think it wise to double cross Doreen surely she’d no or find out. But it Doreen knew I’d get in bother with her was what I said, how would she know, I use other escort agencies not just hers ill not tell if you denounce a month I’m in town, it’s lot of money ,well ok I said sure between you and me. I wasn’t sure why I said that I just thought well that promise of £1,500 each month for sure would mean I’d od just him and that would be me I could pay my mortgage each month get a wee motor ,there was the ass shit fucking oh wait what if he expects me in time to let him do that to me, Clarke I’m loving all we are doing tonight but I just want to be clear if our arrangement continues I won’t ever be into you bursting my ass cherry ok! That’s ok I prefer what we did tonight anyway and you obviously loved it too. OH yeah. So agreed he said with his hand out stretched, yep I said as I shook his hand.

We sat and talked for about five minutes and I hoped he didn’t want this to be a sleep over but he did and I did stay over I didn’t sleep a wink. We got full on naked and he cuddled me, it was awful, it was the worst type of intrusion, this is in many ways to me a sacred thing, when you make love and you lye together all cuddled up close your souls have come together as one, your bodies connected as one, you lay there heart racing spinning breathing in each other’s love, but this was too much. I wanted to be a million miles away from this room this bed him. I couldn’t keep up the act. He feel asleep quickly and try as I could to wriggle away from his arms around me, a little by little I did. I lay with my full make-up on planning an escape but also trying to keep up the charade. He slept I wept. Crying out once more for God to save me. I put too much hope in him, as a child been brought up a strict catholic, every Sunday without fail, mass and the holy days to, confessional the lot. I did novena’s lit candles even  now I still do to my grannies old “Sacred heart of Jesus picture “in my bedroom I’d sit and talk to him for hours. If you checked my bag it’s filled with holy medals and prayers of hope faith, all lost.
    An alarm raced through the room, it was six fifteen am, he turned it off then went to the bathroom while I quickly looked into my compact by the bed, wiped under my eyes few eye drops to take away the redness and in he came. Good morning, good morning, breakfast should be here soon, I have an early flight to catch to London so it’ll be an early departure for us. No worries I said breathing a sigh of relief that I didn’t have to do